Bullied- a Jenzie story

I Love you, I can't hide it anymore -25

Mackenzie's POV

It's been 30 minutes since Johnny has left. I really am wondering where he went. What if he decided to go make out with Nadia instead? 

Stop thinking these things, Mackenzie. You're fine.

Nobody cares. A voice says inside my head. You're worthless, Fat, ugly, stupid. "Stop" I say to the voices. A nobody, disgusting, pig, whore, useless. "Stop" I say raising my voice, the voice becomes faster and faster. NO ONE LOVES YOU The voice screams. "Please stop" I beg, tears are bursting out. "Please, I know it's true but please just stop" I sob. The voice stops. I take in deep breaths and release them. I need to calm my breathing. I'm woken into reality when I get a text message on instagram.

Johnny_Orlando: I'm here

KenzieZiegs: Just walk in

I might sound calm on text, but not in real life. Johnny cannot see that I've been crying, he'll care too much. I wipe my face with my long sleeve on my sweatshirt. 

"Hey" A husky low voice greets me from the door of my room. It startled me at first but I quickly realized that it has to be Johnny. I look up and it is him.

"Oh hi" I say waving my arm awkwardly. He chuckles at this action and looks at the floor, he looks nervous.

"What's up?" I ask. I can't help but feel awkward because of that kiss.

"I have to tell you something." his tone gets serious. He walks over and sits on the foot of the bed across from me. I scrunch up my legs to make room for him.

"I broke up with Nadia." He says looking directly into my eyes. My mouth drops, Nadia will kill me.

"I'm sorry John" I am telling the truth, I would feel bad because I guess Johnny did see something within her.

"No, No. I broke up with her because she was mean to you"

Fuck, Nadia will actually kill me. No joke

"Johnny, you didn't have to do that" I'm speaking in a quiet whisper. I look down fidgeting with my hands, it's a nervous habit I tend to do.

"But I wanted to" He took my chin in his fingers and lifted it up forcing me to look him in the eyes. Fuck, he really knew how to get me to listen. His eyes are literally impossible to resist. You can fall into a trance by just looking at them.

"I Love you, I can't hide it anymore" he spoke, barely audible. He just said he loved me. I've never really have been in Love, maybe I am now. I didn't know what to say, he flustered me. I can feel my cheeks heating up, god why does he have this effect on me?

Before I can even talk or say a word, he leans in and kisses me. Not even the words Sparks, Butterflies or Fireworks could even come close to what I'm feeling right now. I would say I'm feeling the whole zoo, but that's an understatement. 

He breaks the kiss way too quickly. I yearn for this, he's the only thing I have left. I'm hanging a thread and Johnny's the one holding me up. I really do Love him. I really, really do.

"I-I Love you too" I say as a smile graces upon my lips. His mouth forms a smile too. He leans in again, for the third time to kiss me.

But hey

Who's counting?

Sorry for such a short chapter. But heyyyy Jenzayyy is becoming real. They technically aren't dating, do you think Johnny or Kenzie will have the guts to ask each other out? Hmm, I wonder. Oh wait, I'm the author. Gotta blast, I'm really weird. It's 2 am, okay? DOn't Judge me