Bullied- a Jenzie story

We will have fun, I promise you. -46

2 WEEKS LATER

Kenzie's POV

It's 4:35 pm on a Saturday night. I haven't seen Johnny since our night at the Holiday lights. We text and call but he's been busy with school and I've been going to group and hanging out with some friends from group too. Ashton is my closest friend from group. He's so so so nice. 

Me and Ashton are actually planning to go out tonight. Just as friends. I love Johnny and I'm sure I don't like Ashton... i hope. Just recently Ashton and I have been hanging out a lot and it gets me so excited. Johnny and I never have fun anymore, we just act like we are 35 and are already married. I thought that was what I wanted but i just don't know anymore. I don't know how I feel. It sucks so much because I don't want to hurt anyone. I don't want to hurt Johnny, but I don't want to force myself into a relationship. 

I still Love Johnny and I always will. He helped me through such a hard time in life but I whenever I look at him i'm reminded of how much I hurt him, how much  I hurt everyone. When I'm with Ashton we just have fun. I never have really had this much fun with anybody else. But I don't think I'd ever date Ashton but at the same time i just DONT KNOWWWW FUCKKCKCKCKCK.

Speaking of, Johnny just texted me.

Johnny: Hey Love, just wanted to see how you're doing. I was thinking we could go out tonight...?

Kenz: I'm going with Ashton some place. Sorry <3

Johnny: Oh, that's okay. Didn't you go out with him last night?

Kenz: haha yeah. But he wanted to go out again. Sorryyyyy.

Johnny: oh.. k

Kenz: Love you!!

Johnny: I love you too

Do I feel guilty? Yes. But Ashton and I already had plans. Maybe Johnny should've asked sooner. Ugh. I know I shouldn't be blaming this all on Johnny but like... maybe he should just give me some space sometimes. 

(A/N Wtf I actually wanna throw hands with Kenzie)

My phone starts ringing and I look and see that ashton is facetiming me. I pick up almost right away but I have my face hidden.

"Hiya Kenz" He says

"Hi" 

"Let me see your face." He chuckles.

"Noooo" I whine "I look so ugly"

"You always look amazing K" I blush deeply. He knows about Johnny, I guess it's probably just a friendly compliment, right?

"That's a lie"

"Kenz! Just let me see your pretty face"

I sigh "Fine."

I show my face and he smiles. 

"See." he speaks

"You look amazing, Kenz"

"Thank you" I say as I blush, yet again. 

"I'm picking you up in 10, okay?"

I nod in agreement "What are we even going to do?" 

"We will have fun. I promise you" He winks and then hangs up. My mouth is open from shock.

  I know this isn't a good idea. I know it's horrible. But something about Ashton just makes me feel so incredibly free and alive. 

I think I might like him.

My poor baby John. Um. Not super happy with KeNz in this chapter but I think that all kids make mistakes and I just want some dRaMa. Sorry for a short chapter. And sorry for KiNd Of ruining jenzie. SO much has happened in this book. this book sucks. I think I'm going to wrap it up soon because I've been writing this shiii for like 6 months. idek. BUT, next chapter will be more interesting.... HOPEFULLY ILL UPDATE SOOOOOOOOOOON. also, I was too lazy to edit any mistakes so uh, sorry about it.