Bullied- a Jenzie story

I feel loved - 09

Kenzie's POV

I know I was sad about everything. I really do miss Lauren but Hayden and I are getting closer! He's actually coming over today! Johnny has been ignoring me ever since I've been hanging out with him. It's weird because Hayden said that Johnny's ignoring him too, weird. 

I just got out of bed and it is 10:30 am, it's Sunday and I'm not ready to go back to school tomorrow. Hayden is coming over at 11:30 so I decided to get up. 

I put on Blue jean shorts and a maroon t-shirt. I decide to put on some mascara, I want to look good, okay? And I brush my teeth and my hair. I decide to wear my hair in dutch braids. Before I knew it, there was a knock on my door. I went downstairs, before  I did, I looked in the mirror and made sure I looked decent. Shit. I almost forgot about my cuts so I quickly go upstairs and put concealer on and blended it. I quickly ran down the stairs and when I opened the door I was practically out of breath.

"Hi Hayden!" I say trying not to sound so damn out of breath. I should probably start to work out.

"Hi Mackenzie" He replies.

I allow him to come in my house by opening the door and stepping out of the way. 

"So, Mackenzie. I was thinking that we should go out on Thursday. Maybe a-umm date?"

Fuck my noodles, Johnny tutors me on Thursday. But there is still some part of me that wants to see Johnny. There is still a part of me that feels butterflies when I hear his name, or even think about him. And, There is still a part of me that loves him. Scratch that, my whole heart loves him.

"Hayden.." I  start "I really, really wish I could but Johnny tutors me on Thursday."

"oh, I'm sorry. It was dumb of me to even ask tha-" before he could finish, I kissed him on the cheek to shut him up, and of course because he is cute as hell.

"That means you can shut up." I say as I giggle

"Maybe I should talk more often, if that's the way you'll shut me up, I'll start talking every second of the day." he says obviously talking about how I kissed him on his cheek.

I just blush and look down.

"So, what do you wanna do today?" I ask trying to break the silence.

"Let's watch a movie." Hayden says, without any hesitation.

"What one?" 

"Kenz, do you expect me to pick everything?" he asks while chuckling. I sorta cringe at the way he said my nickname, it didn't roll off his tongue like it does with Johnny. Johnny says it perfectly, honestly what does Johnny not do that isn't perfect? But I really, like Hayden and I don't wanna lose him. At all.

"Oh umm, how about the notebook?" I ask.

"Or, not" he says

"Okay, how about pitch perfect?" I ask 

"The notebook it is." he says

I lead him to the couch and put a blanket on myself. I sat a little bit far from him because I didn't know if he wanted this. Once I sat a little far from him he immediately pulled me towards him and placed my head on his shoulder. 

I couldn't help but blush, he started stroking my hair. I felt tingles up and down my spine. I looked up and into his eyes and he leaned in and he kissed me. We were there for about 3 seconds. I backed away and looked into his eyes. I feel like I found the one.

Hayden's POV

I fucked up.

You don't know my story and I just fucked up. God I'm probably a horrible person. I'm using Mackenzie to make Annie jealous. At the party on friday night when I came outside and sat with Kenzie, it was right before I saw Annie kissing another boy and I saw Kenzie and I knew Johnny liked her and I wanted to just make Annie jealous. But I'm gonna keep doing what I'm doing because Annie will totally come running for me when she sees me with Mackenzie. I just don't know how I'll tell Mackenzie.

Then I got it.

I will break up with Mackenzie in a couple of weeks when Annie realizes she needs me. I'll just act like it wasn't working out and in the couple of weeks I'll have fun with Kenzie, it'll be like a summer fling maybe I'll take her virginity and just use her. I'm kind of liking the sounds of my plan now. I mean, I'll have kenzie as a side-chick.

and now I'm going to kiss her, and that's what I did.

Kenzie's POV

To say I felt butterflies is an understatement. It wasn't fireworks either. It was like a huge bomb just went off in my heart. It exploded, but in a good way.

"Was I your first kiss?" Hayden asks

F L A S H B A C K

I was 8 and Johnny was 9

"C'mon Kenzie" The young Johnny calls as we were on the playground.

"No! come on the swings, Johnny!" I call

"Ok" he says running over to the swings

He comes up running

"Kenzie, can I do something?" he asks

"Of course, John" I reply

he walks towards me and slips on a best friend bracelet on my wrist, yes it is the one I keep on my ankle, and he already had his on and comes up and tucks a hair behind my face and just gives me a kiss. Barely a peck, but I still remember it till this day and it will always be placed in the back of my mind.

F L A S H B A C K   O V E R

I smile at the memory.

"Kenzie" a familiar voice says to me

I just look up and say "mhm?"

"Answer my question" he says sort of demanding

"No, you weren't but I bet I wasn't yours either" I reply

"Fair enough" he says

"I probably got to go now that the movie is over. I'll kiss- I mean see you later" and then he kisses me

I start to blush as I walk towards the door with him

"Bye Hayden" I say as he walks out the door

he just waves goodbye.

I shut the door, as I was smiling from ear to ear.

I finally felt loved. But who knew that feeling could go away in a blink of an eye? I sure as hell didn't. But now, I do and it did happen to me.