Mackenzie's POV
"What do I think of it?" I giggle, he is so self conscious sometimes and really has no reason to be "I fucking loved it Johnny" I tell truthfully.
"Well thank you Kenzie"
"Oh no Honey, thank YOU" I say emphasizing the 'you'. He just chuckles as he puts his guitar right in his case and zips it up as he lies it on the ground. I stand up moving from the bed as I walk towards him and sit on his lap, facing towards him. I can tell he gets a bit nervous with this 'position' we're in. It amazes me of how much I can affect him.
"You nervous John?" I ask, kind of teasing him a bit. I put my hands around his neck, he hasn't put his hands anywhere, definitely nervous.
"w-what?" he clears his throat "No totally, totally not" Jesus, he's a bad liar.
"Hmm, okay" I shrug it off, leaning in and making our lips connect, even though I didn't act nervous I still was. He puts his hands on my waist, wrapping his arms around it. He doesn't break the kiss and I don't want him to.
"John" someone opens the door, walking in on us, they knock even after they open the door I hate when people do that. What's the point of knocking if you already opened the door? Fuck. This is embarrassing. I turn around and see Lauren, I quickly get off of Johnny. "Sorry, I-I'll leave this um ok bye!" she says. I flush in embarrassment.
"I'm sorry about that" Johnny chuckles from embarrassment. He stands up off from his desk chair and puts his hands on my waist. He looks me straight in my eyes, having to look down. I'm a very short girl, I'm barely passing 5 feet 2 inches and Johnny is about 5 feet 11 inches, he still is growing too.
"My girl was getting feisty" he chuckles kissing me only giving a peck.
"Oh shut up" I laugh from embarrassment and slap his arm, playfully.
"No, I liked it" He states, smiling. He leans in and I was expecting a kiss on the lips but he kisses my neck causing me to gasp. He smiles against my skin, damn I guess he can affect me too. He kisses from my neck, to my jaw making me feel something I never have before. (A/N IM A CHILD WTF AM I WRITING! I'm fuxking weird) He eventually stops to look at me. "You're really, really cute and I wish I could just kiss you all day but we have to talk about your mental health. I really mean it." (A/N WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK AM I WRITING, YOU CAN ACTUALLY COME KILL ME NOW) He's so sweet, but I don't think I can. I just bury my head into his chest and nod. He makes it all seem so easy, it scares me.
"Okay, come lie on the bed with me." he says, in a quiet tone. I follow his directions and do so. "So.." he starts "Just tell me why you would ever want to cut or be skinnier?"
"Johnny, I don't expect you to get it and you never will but cutting is something that helps the pain. I know it's bad, it's not like I think it's good. It just feels good, I know there is something wrong with me. I just can't stop"
He takes a deep breath in, taking in all what I just told him. "Mackenzie, I just don't get why. You are so perfect so why would you want to be skinny?"
"I've always been looked down on. When I lost all my friends, some people told me to lose weight and I thought that's why I lost friends. This sounds really dumb but I follow a bunch of models on instagram and I've always aspired to be like them and the only way I felt was good enough was not eating or in some cases I felt better purging."
"It's really hard to see the best girl I know go through the hardest things" he speaks
"Why so cliche?" I giggle, turning over to face him
"Oh please, our whole love story is cliche. Literally, I bet if we were famous or something Lauren and Brynn wouldn't be the only people obsessing over us." *Looks at readers and sips tea* I just giggle and nod my head, it's weird to think about other people obsessing over someone's love life *Looks at me and the readers again*
"I love you" I say for probably the thousandth time.
"I love you too"
Sorry for this fuxking PORN. okay not actually but I did get very uncomfortable writing about them kissing. Not sure why but I did, anyways carry on with your life
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