Bullied- a Jenzie story

The countdown -32

Mackenzie's POV

I grab the scissors, eagerly waiting to see what I'll do. It feels like I don't even control my body anymore, it scares me.

"Mackenzie, open up" someone bangs on the door, Johnny did. He's not even allowed in here what the heck.

"Johnny, you aren't supposed to be here" 

"Please don't do what I think you're about to do" he begs

"Well why should I Johnny? You liked that kiss, I know you did."

"You should because I love you, please believe me"

I roll my eyes. "You know it's really funny" I let out a dry laugh, I can already see his eyebrows form in confusion. "People always keep telling me that, they always say how they love me and they'll never leave me."

"Mackenzie I love you, trust me. Please don't cut yourself"

"I-I won't cut myself, I'm not that mental" I try to lie to myself, not very convincing Kenz good job. "I'll hand you the scissors"

I slide the scissors from under the stall.

"Thank you" he sighs in relief "now please let me in."

I hesitate. But I give in and open it. He immediately greets me with a hug, it was a hug that would never end.

"I love you Mackenzie please stop hurting yourself. I love you so much"

"I'm sorry" I sob into his shirt. "I need help Johnny, there's something wrong with me but I just can't tell anyone."

"Maybe you could go to therapy" he suggests.

"Johnny, I'll be fine. Even if I'm not right now, I'll make it fine." I reassure him. I can feel him nod, I break away from the hug.

"I'm really sorry I've been acting this way Johnny."

"No, don't be. It's not your fault." 

I just nod, not really agreeing but wanting to.

"I thought I could trust her, I thought I could trust everyone. It's only December and my whole life has changed. Even yours has, it's just a year of love and hate. It's been one of the worst years but best. It's not even halfway done."

"Mackenzie, we have to get out of here. I can't be caught in here." he laughs slightly. "Do you forgive me?" he questions, I know he feels really bad.

"I-I need time to think about it. I don't want to break u-up." I sniffle "I just want to may-maybe take a break." he immediately turns sad.

"I-I'm not sure how I feel about this Mack" he tries not to cry "If you loved me, you would trust me when I say that, that kiss didn't mean anything"'

"You didn't pull back" I remind him. 

"Mackenzie, I was in shock. Please believe me."

"I-I'm sorry Johnny, I can't. I don't want to break up with you, I just need a break. Please"

"No, I can't be in a relationship with someone who doesn't love and trust me." he starts to leave but I grab him.

"I fucking love you John!" I shout "I trust you too! I just, people are being so mean and I need to take some time" 

"Mackenzie, I'm sorry. I don't feel like you'll ever truly love me. This relationship needs to end, you obviously aren't ready for a relationship."

"So it's over like that?" I ask, getting angry.

"You wanted the break!" he shouts. "Now, I have to leave. I need to feel loved in a relationship."

"No, you promised me you would never leave me!" I shout. "You said that you will always be there for me. How dare you fucking leave me when I needed you most!" I shout at him. 

"I already told you, I can't be in a relationship where I'm not trusted." he calms his voice. "Goodbye Mackenzie" his voice cracks, and he exits leaving me all alone. Too many things have happened today. Carson kissed me, Brynn kissed Johnny, Johnny begged for me to open up because he loved me but then broke up with me.

If I don't have Johnny anymore, there is no point for me to breathe.

I'm making a plan, the plan that will eventually end it all.

The countdown: 7 days left. 

SOOO. I'm sorry for this chapter :( . I didn't want them to break either. This book might be longer than what I expected just because of how many things I have planned. But I am so excited for you guys to read 'He left us'! I already have wrote 6 chapters of it. 

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