Snatched (August Alsina)

Chapter 18: Rejection

August's POV

I admit I know exactly what came over me when I started beating the shit out of that Cliff guy and got myself kicked out of the carnival... he's a threat to me. I don't want him to get Danielle... I don't know what got me so angry that I fought him that hard, though. Danielle probably thinks I'm a fucking monster now.

The incident from last night made me wanna go see her today and tell her my true feelings and why I did what I did to Cliff. I needed her to know that I really, really liked her, even if she don't feel the same - hell, she probably don't after what happened last night. I gave her something to panic and worry about, which she's had too much of lately. I needed to apologize for that.

I walked through her front door, looking over to see Cliff laying passed out of the couch and Danielle sitting silently on the other.

I couldn't help but feel tense at the sight of Cliff... I just can't stand that nigga. He probably a good guy and all, but I don't like him.

"Uh, hey" I greeted, shooting a nod at Danielle, who stood up and crossed her arms but didn't say anything. Her face was blank, but I could see the anger and disappointment built up in her squinting eyes.

"Look, I need to talk to you" I told her. "Uh, alone." She rolled her eyes and beckoned me with her hand as a gesture to follow her. We walked into her room, where I closed the door behind us and sat on the bed with her. A few silent, awkward moments passed by of us just looking at each other and our surroundings because honestly, my mind went blank before I could gather the words I wanted to say.

"That fight was out of line" She finally said, looking down at her bed and fiddling with her fingers.

"I know it was" I admitted guility, scratching the back of my head. "I went all gorilla on him and didn't even need to."

"Why'd you even do that?" She shot me a disgraced look, which didn't help how bad I felt about the situation and the state it must've put her in.

I let out a sigh and curled my lips in. This was it... this was the time to tell her how I feel.

"Look, Danielle, I um..." I began before pausing to nervously take a deep swallow, "I just... I saw you being with Cliff, and I didn't like it... I uh, I felt kinda... ok I never feel this way or admit to feelin' it, but I was jealous."

I looked up at her to see a confused expression begin to take form of her face. "What?"

"Look" I replied, "I really, really like you. You got me feelin' some type of way I ain't ever felt before. I needed to tell you... but I know you prolly don't like me back, and I don't blame you." Now I was hoping she'd say she felt the same. I want her to like me back and to be with me 'cause damn, we could go far, but I expected her to give me a cold, harsh response.

I looked up at her to see her face blank.

"Well?" I asked. She sighed and rubbed her hands sloppily up and down her face before gathering her reply, which left me nervous and anxious as I sat waiting for it to come.

"Look" She began, "I like you and all, it's just.... with everything going on, I'm just not ready for a relationship. I wanted to give it a try and go for you, I'll admit that, but then I was thinkin' a while after that and It's just not something that I can handle right now. Plus you and I have only know each other for a few weeks, August. I don't wanna rush anything."

I didn't show any emotion that I felt; on the outside, I just simply nodded and said "that's cool", while on the inside, I actually felt kinda let down. Usually rejection leaves me not giving a fuck, but this time it was different. I could see where she was coming from, though, and at least this girl don't hate me.

"Sorry" She mumbled.

"It's fine, I respect you" I said, giving her a half-grin, which she gave right back.

Even if we ain't together, I know we'll always be really good friends.

"Um, so why does Cliff hate you so much?" Danielle then asked. "I mean, he seemed pretty hostile as soon as you came up to us."

"Well he said he heard shit about me" I replied. I know exactly what shit he's heard about me, too; my drug dealing reputation. Maybe this would also be a good time to come clean about the "mission" that involved Danielle.

"Uh, Danielle, I have somethin' to tell you, but you gotta listen to everything I say."

"What is it?" She asked.

"Uh, well, you deserve to know and I can't keep this from you forever" I began to confess, "But you know how you and I met at that party? Well, at the time I was on a mission... to uh... you gotta listen, ok? I'm in the drug dealing game, ain't gonna lie. I just recently joined in with Javo, the group yours was rivals with and he uh, he sent me on a mission to become friends with you and kill you to weaken y'all. At first I just acted interested in you, but then I felt bad about it and actually became genuinely interested in you and your sister died and shit, and that's when I found out you get Hank anyway, so I thre off the whole mission... I'm so sorry, Danielle."

Her face was still blank.

"Just go" She said. And I did.

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So what do you think of this chapter? How do you feel about Danielle's response to how August feels about her? Do you think she'll be mad about the mission and avoid him or do you think she'll forgive and understand?

Please comment, I need to know how y'all feel about the story, and I'd also like to say thanks for reading :)