Diagnosis // Yoonmin ff

Chapter Twenty

I watch him sleep so peacefully. He never tells me what he dreams about, what his nightmares are like. Slowly, my gaze falls on his wounded arm. He cut himself really deep. And I hate myself for letting that happen.

I turn myself to lay on my back and stare at the ceiling. Many things went through my head. My parents, Yoongi's mother, his disease... There are too many things that are on our way towards happiness. I lift my hand and touch the scratch on my cheek that I got from Yoongi's mother.

This is not the end. No way. It cannot be. I shouldn't be. If needed, I'll fight all by myself. I'll fight against destiny. Just for you my angel. I'll fight against that disease. Fuck that stupid diagnosis... I'll never let this be the end. I know it won't be the end. There is no more the old Park Jimin. The new one is here, and this new Jimin will fight for you, for us. I won't let you die Yoongi. I won't, even if it costs me my life. Even if I have to become a murderer, to kill someone or myself. I don't know how will I do it, but I will. I must...

I kept watching him silently for a few minutes more before leaving the room. I couldn't take being there anymore. Something deep inside me broke every time I laid my eyes on him. It was suffocating me. I didn't even realize when did the tears start flowing down my face. I moved at the end of the hallway, not wanting him to hear me sobbing and crying my heart out. I just can't... I hugged myself, resting my head on the knees, as my whole body was shaking at this point.

"Why is all of this happening? Why is life so hard? Why does he have to die? Why does he have to leave me all by myself?"

I questioned myself while crying even harder. He won't leave me alone! He won't! He'll live. I know that. I'm sure of that. HE WOULD NEVER LEAVE ME ALONE! HE WILL LIVE! He c-can't leave... Not yet... He promised to get old with me. He can't break that promise. And I can't break mine either.

I get up, whipping away the rest of the tears that were on my face. I can't be like this. I need to be strong for him.

I'm not going to cry in front of him anymore. I'll be strong. For both of us. 

"Stop being a cry baby. Take a deep breath and calm yourself down Jimin. Tears won't bring any solutions. He won't die so just calm down. Right, he won't die. He won't."

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The next day, I got up earlier to prepare him breakfast before leaving off for work. Even though it was my days off, I just needed to speak to Jin and try to find out some things about the Min family.

Unfortunately, he wasn't able to provide me with any information. He did say that Namjoon is the one who would probably know something about Mins. I'll try talking to him later regarding that matter.

I need to find out as much as I can about Yoongi's past and his family. But at the same time, I need to figure out how to keep him being happy. I also need to find a way to help him get rid of these nightmares. I don't know how, but I will find a way to help him recover. I'll stay awake the whole night and keep an eye on him. Even when he's in hospital, I won't leave his side no matter the day or night.

I'll do anything just to make him happy. That's the least I can do for him. I know, I'm running away from reality again. I'm hiding away the truth. But that's for the best.

At least I hope it is...

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