right so I didnt actually manage to properly update you on anything...have i even mentioned anything about my actual life to begin with? anways i guess the main thing thats happened that i actually care about is that my ex had popped back into my life in May after blocking me for reasons he didnt even know, for about 7 months. Lets call this certain ex sad boy. So yeah sad boy popped up and we became quite fucking close again until june 3rd. lmao i guess i should explain that me and sad boy have never actually met each other before in person. i met him in a groupchat online. no, he wasnt a pedo. No, he was not a catfish and no he wasnt planning to kill me...as far as im aware.
I feel as though theres a lot of stigma towards people who forms connections with others over the internet. if anything those friendships or relationships ar probably more genuine than those in real life. for the main reason that we're not being forced to interact and we connect over our shared interests which already forms a slid foundation. people should be more open minded considering its quite hypocritical to be judgemental of internet friendships when you jump into a car with a stranger and trust that nothing bad will happen.
back to sad boy, i feel like we really had a strong connection and i really did love him but i felt like the same energy i would put into hi was not being reciprocated. He wanted the relationship benefits without the actual relationship since he told me he wanted to stay "friends" likeeeeee thanks for the offer buuuut
IMMA HAVE TO PASS ON THAT MATEY
it was bullshit. Also to clarify by relationship benefits i mean the emotional support etc.
But yeah that chapter of my story has been blocked, cancelled and d e l e t e d. I feel rejuvenated in some sort of way to be honest.
oh. another update to my quite depressing story which you might not know. brace yourself this might be a shock. im depressed. recently ive been feeling like my suicidal tendecies and thoughts have grown stronger and ive been considering taking some medication/antidepressants. im not too sure about it though. id much rather smoke and get high.
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Guess Issa journal
RandomRead the title dimwit. I'm just gonna be chattin bout anything I wanna get off my chest. A lot of depressing shit so don't read if you're a lil bitch and tryna avoid them "vibes".
