I'm in so much pain right now.
I ended my relationship with sad boy and i can't go through this shit again. I knew this was going to happen and i tried to avoid this but it was inevitable. We ended things knowing we still love each other. it never would've worked out but here i am feeling the most numbing cold feeling. who do i talk to now i've lost my person? I dead the next couple days, weeks, months without him. I know it wouldve never worked but why do i do this to myself? Why do i hurt myself by allowing myself to get in that position ???? DO I CRAVE PAIN? DO I JUST WANT MORE AMMUNITION TO FUCKING END MY SHIT? I think what hurts the most is that i hurt him...again. I'm a terrible person. Maybe it's good we blocked each other. He deserves better than me. attachments really are the only thing stopping me from ending my shit.
I'm in a very dark place right now.
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RandomRead the title dimwit. I'm just gonna be chattin bout anything I wanna get off my chest. A lot of depressing shit so don't read if you're a lil bitch and tryna avoid them "vibes".
