its the 5th of December and its not too long now until 2020. Hard to believe we're about to enter a new decade full of new possibilities and new people. I've been thinking about the future a lot recently and it's scary but so so exciting. anything could happen and the only thing that could ever possibly limit me is myself. I've grown so much over the years. I have to say it to myself because nobody truly knows how much I've overcome and gone through but I'm proud of myself. For existing and believing that tomorrow will be a better day. Sometimes it wasn't and sometimes it was but I never would've known if I didn't give tomorrow a chance.
I genuinely cannot wait for this new chapter in my life, I NEED to meet new people and live for the spontaneity of the unknown. I'm lowkey tired of my circle of friends, as great as they all are, I can't see any of them doing the wild things that I want to do and well I don't want to be the "bad influence" .
Lately I been thinking about the future a lot more than I usually do. I'm not sure if I've mentioned this before but everywhere I turn the topic of love is brought up or I'd see hearts in everything. Whether it's a leaf fallen from a tree in the shape of a heart or the bubbles in my coffee. It's everywhere. I usually avoid any chance of meeting someone etc etc because I've never wanted marriage and all the crap that comes with it. I'm still pretty on guard about the whole marriage shit but for some reason I'm more open to it now than I was before. Having someone by your side and loving you doesn't seem too bad, my marriage doesn't need to conform to anyone else's standards or expectations.
Sigh.
Maybe I'm just lonely.
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