Just Before a Sunrise, There is a Dark Night

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Chapter 11

We decided to sit around my coffee table in my living room as we waited for the sushi to arrive. I was so nervous yet I was extremely happy. "So you've never tried sushi, like at all?" I shook my head. "No I never had, I think it's just stinky rotten fish rolled up rice, doubt I will like it." Killian laughs.

"Well you never know until you try it." I scoff. That's when the door bell rings. We both get up. "I got it." I say as I went looking for my purse. That's when I hear the door close. I turn around and gasp. "My treat." I scoff.

"I was going to pay for that." Killian laughs. "Well I wouldn't be a gentleman if you did." I chuckle. We went and sat back down and then he laid all the sushi in the middle of the table. He then placed a plate and a pair of chopstick. I stared at them and I got nervous.

I was so bad at using chopsticks and now I know that I will make a fool of myself. I look at them and Killian has a smile on my face. "You don't know how to use them do you?" I chuckle. "Of course I do." He raises his eyebrow. "Alright then grab a piece of that California roll, let's ease up your way to big ones."

I stared at it and I was trembling. I am a freaking surgeon for gosh sakes, why can't I use chopsticks? I look at Killian and he is laughing. "So a highly trained surgeon can't use chopsticks?" I scoff.

"Not all people are skilled for this ok mister captain of the army." Killian laughs. "Ok here just try it." He grabs a piece and puts in front of my mouth. I get nervous and I close my mouth. Killian laughs as he puts his arm back. "You're supposed to eat it Emma." I chuckle.

"I know that but how do I know you're not trying to poison me huh?" He then places the piece in his mouth and eats it. "See I wasn't trying..." His face then turn pales and it looks like he's choking. I started to freak out and ran to him. "See I told you eating this type of fish is bad." He then starts to laugh.

"Emma the roll contains avocado, cucumber, crab meat, and rice." I scoffed. I walk back to my spot and sat down. "Don't do that you really scared me." Killian lifted his eyebrow. "So you do care?" I blush. "Ok enough let's eat." He nods and I try again to use the chopsticks but I freaking can't.

That's when Killian sits next to me. "Let me help you." I nod. He shows me how he grabs the chopsticks then shows me step by step how to grab them. Then he grabs my hand and tries to help me. I try to grab it but it fell but landed on my plate.

Killian and I were just laughing and having a good time. I went and grabbed a piece and ate it. Killian gave me an intrigued look as I was chewing it. "So you like it?" I nod. He smiled as he grabbed another piece that had lobster and salmon in it.

I tried it and I actually loved it. We continued to eat and just had a grand time. After we finished Killian and I were both sitting on my couch and we were thumb wrestling. I know very childish but honestly holding his hand like that sent shivers up my spine.

After that we just laid back and we're just smiling at each other. "You liked them didn't you?" I scoffed then smiled. "Yeah they were good." He smiles. "I knew it." I smiled. We just stayed quiet just staring at each other. I coughed and smiled.

"I know I apologized to you earlier but I am truly sorry, didn't mean to get you all wet." He smiles. "Maybe you can make it up to me." I look at his eyes and he was just staring at my lips. "How?" He smiles and leans closer to me.

He caresses my cheek and I blush. "Am I making the famous doctor Emma Swan nervous?" I continue to blush. That's when he presses his lips against mine. The sparks that I felt once before intensified. He slowly lays me down on my back as we continued to kiss.

God he was so amazing, I felt his hand caress my legs as he started to kiss my neck. He slowly made his way back up to my lips and that was making me go insane. He stops and looks down at me. "I hope I'm not over stepping in any way." I smile. "Oh trust me big boss, you aren't." He smirked and kissed me again.

As we are kissing we hear a phone go off. Killian lets go of me and looks towards his phone. That's when we hear an emergency broadcast appear on the tv. Killian got off me and helped me up off the couch. He answered the phone as I watched the tv. My heart dropped, a neighboring country wants to start a war with ours.

I look at Killian and he's still on the phone. I guess his leave has been shortened, he has to go fight. He hangs up and I see his head hang low. He turns to me and I could see hurt in his eyes. He walks up to me and I nod. "Emma....I..." I nod. "You have your duty, I have mine, go." He shakes his head.

"This is not fair, I want to stay with you." I caressed his cheek and he half smiled. "I really like you Emma." I smile. "I do too." He smiles. "I'll be on deployment for a long time depending on the situation, it could be up to a year." My heart dropped.

I looked down and knew that all this was too good to be true. "Then I guess this is where we say goodbye." He gives me a shocked look. "You don't want to be with me?" I half smile. "Of course but maybe fate or destiny doesn't want us to be together." He nods. "If that's what you want love." I look away. "It's not but I can't keep you tied down you know." He nods. "I guess people like us must sacrifice our lives for the greater good, huh?." I nod.

He leans in and gives me a tender yet passionate kiss. A tear rolls down my face and I could feel his hurt in our kiss. We didn't want to let go because once we did this wonderful dream we are living in is going to end. We let go as we gasp for air. He places his forehead against mine and caresses my cheek.

"I will never forget you Emma Swan." I smile. "And I will never forget you Killian Jones." He smiles and kisses me one last time. "Have a good life beautiful." He grabs his stuff and walks out the door. I walk up to the window and I see him drive away.

I burst into tears as he disappeared into the dark night. Life was so unfair, why couldn't I be happy? Why is it that the person I actually started to have feelings for is being ripped away from me. I sat on the couch and grabbed a pillow.

I know I probably should have fought and told him I would be waiting for him but I couldn't do that to him. He deserves someone who can actually be with him in the army. I really regret sending him away but it's the best thing for the both of us.

We both have different duties, his is to kill people to protect our country and mine is to save people no matter who they are and what they represent. In no world those types of people can live a good life together, maybe our meeting was just a mistake.