The Face in the Crowd. {Brendon Urie Fanfic}

Chapter 14:: Even Flow .

(Brendon's p.o.v)
       I wait on the side of the highway. My fingers squeezing the bridge of my nose. How could she not tell me. After everything. I knew she was special.
I noticed Spencer's car and he pulled up next to me, Dallon at shotgun. I tried to pull myself together, but I'm just a mess. I take a deep breath and get into the back seat. I keep on holding
 my breath, then it's finally time to exhale. As I exhale, sobs escape my throat and I just loose it and lay on the back seats.
   I can't imagine Dallon and Spencer's face right now, like 'What is his problem' or 'I guess the fuck was terrible'. I relax and slow my breaths. I open my eyes and look over to the drivers
 and passengers seat. I didn't even notice the car wasn't moving. They were both looking at me with their jaws dropped. I stopped breathing and mouthed 'What?' I'm out of breath,
 I can't even speak right.
"Wow, just wow." Spencer said turning around. He kind of seemed disappointed.
"I haven't seen you cry like that ever since your mom took away your Gameboy," Spencer added, starting the car. He pulled off back into the highway lanes and drove down the road.
Dallon was still staring at me, like a madman.
"Well were kind of curious what happened, but we will wait till your ready." Dallon said, turning around. I sighed and rested my head back. "Thanks guys, can we just go to a brunch place
 or something?" I whispered, my voice kind of hurt from sobbing so fucking much. This girl gives me the feels.
            
        Once we got in the restaurant, Coco's, we get a booth and sit down. I fiddled with my hands, not even looking at them once. I wan't even hungry, I just thought they were after
 the drive.
"So, Brendon. What are you going to get?" Spencer asked politely. I shrugged, "I'm not hungry." I put my menu down, "Then why did we come here?" Spencer retorted.
"Because I thought you guys were hungry." I said. "Thanks Bren," Dallon answered for Spencer. I shrugged and forced a smile, still looking at my hands. Remembering what
its like to have her hold them. I intertwine my fingers together and inspect them, it's not the same. I untangle them and tap my fingers on the table.
   With me, I always need to be doing something. It's apart of my ADHD.
"So, um Brendon. How are you?" Spencer said uncomfortably. I gave him a look that said 'Did you really just ask that considering I was sobbing nearly twenty minutes ago?'
He muttered, "Sorry."
"No, I'm sorry. This is just really hard for me to handle," I choked on my words. I don't think I can go on without totally causing a scene.
"Maybe we can talk it out, we can help." Dallon said reaching for my hand. I pulled away. I don't want anyone touching me right now, just one little thing that touches me, I'll break down
 or get furious.
"You can't help it though." I whisper. "You just can't," I slam my fist on the table, causing the glasses to jump up and then back on the table again. Dallon looked at me, helplessly.
I covered my eyes with my hand. "I'm sorry, I just can't handle this." I say walking out of the booth, to the mens restroom. I run into a stall and lock the door. I close the lid and sit on
it. I cry harder and harder, trying to shut my self up by biting my jacket.  I start rocking back and forth to sooth myself. Sometimes I feel like i'm losing my mind.
   I see two pairs of shoes in front of my stall.
"Brendon, we hate seeing you like this, please come out and we can talk." Spencer pleads. I roll my eyes back into my head and sigh, "Come in then," I get up and open the stall door.
I let them in and close it behind them. I sit back on the toilet seat and put my elbows on my knees. They are standing up, looking down on me.
"Take your time," Dallon soothed, He knows what to do cause he's a Dad.
"Alice-" I start, then tears start to slip out of my eyes at the mention at her name. "Alice has-" I broke down. I felt rubs on my back which made me want to scream. When I'm like this,
I like to be alone.
"Alice-Alice has a deadly disease." I finish and start sobbing even harder, bawling my eyes. Dallon stops rubbing my back and retreats backwards.
"I love her so-so much" I stuttered my words with cries.
"You just met her like 3 days ago?" Spencer said rudely.
"Spencer!" Dallon scolded. "I fell in love the moment I saw my daughter," Dallon put on a smile. I frowned at the thought that me and Alice would never be able to live life with each other.
"What disease?" Spencer asked, crouching down at my height. I shrugged.
"We need to get her to the hospital," Spencer stood up and opened the door.
"No! I can't see her after I walked out on her like that!" I cried, "I'm a terrible boyfriend," I put my face in my hands.
"Boyfriend?" Dallon asked. "I was never told such thing." he told me.
"Whatever, it doesn't matter. We need to get back to her, Brendon, if your not coming were going to get her ourselves and take her. Your choice," Spencer stated. I sighed.
"I hate you guys," I stood up and they smiled. They know how to get on my ass.

           We left Coco's immediately and rushed over to her place. I led the way down the mountain into the dirt hole.
"Where does she have money for this?" Dallon exclaimed. I chuckled to myself. I wanted to say 'She doesn't'.
            They followed me down the cellar and into the living room. No sign of her anywhere. I look in the balcony, guestrooms, bathrooms, and etc. One place let was her bedroom, room A3.
They tailed me as I opened the door. The girl was crying into a pillow. I gasped.
  I jumped onto the bed and wrapped myself around her without thinking. She tried to struggle away from me, but I didn't let go. "Get away from me!" She yelled. I let go and she fell off the bed.
She took a good look at me, then saw Dal and Spence. She looked at me with a mad look. I'm kind of scared, she is strong woman.
"So you think you can 'cuddle me' and everything will be better, no. You just left me at my most darkest moment. I don't think so Urie. Leave me alone." She yelled with mascara down her face.
She tried to get out of the room, but the boys were blocking her.
"Listen to me Alice!" I jumped off the bed and grabbed her arm.
"We have done this too many times, just leave." She gritted her teeth.
"No, I'm not leaving. I love you too much, we are going to the hospital, now." I yelled. She backed up alittle.
"If you loved me, why'd you leave again? Yes again. This happened numbours times Brendon! You don't love me, so just let me go." She angrily said.
Spencer barged in the argument, "Actually, Brendon really loves you a lot. He doen't shut up about you seriously!" He exclaimed, "I mean after he left he went to us and was sobbing his eyes out,
I mean he was like choking! It was hilarious, but then it got really scary because he couldn't stop. So we went to a restaurant and he literally hid in the stalls and sobbed saying how much he loved you."
    I face-palmed at his statement. It was true, but she didn't need to know, "Thanks for adding, Spencer." I glared at him. He shrugged and smirked.
"Why did you come back?" She asked a little calmer. "I want to help, I'm going to get you through this. So we are leaving now, put on some shoes." I said, kissing her cheek. She pulled away
 and wiped it off. Okay that hurt, a lot.
"No, I don't need help. Just forget about me please, it would be easier for both of us. I'm going to make things easier, Brendon, let's take a break." She said quietly, close to crying.
 I walked backwards and knelt down in defeat. I started sobbing again, wow I'm such a man. I'm so stupid.
"Alice, you can't do this. I'm just trying to help you, I love you-," I was stopped by choking. Alice was choking, she fell to the floor with her hands on her heart.
"SPENCER START THE GODDAMN CAR!" I shook. Spencer ran out and Dallon followed. I knelt down and picked up Alice. She coughed onto my shoulder, I rubbed her back.
"No, Brendon, leave me alon-" She coughed out. "Yea, no." I said while running down the hall. This all seems to familiar, everything.
         I got out of the house with Alice clutched onto my jacket. Dallon and Spencer were already in the car. Me and Alice were in the back, she sat on my lap and I held her close to me, kissing
 her head every second. "Your going to be okay, Okay?" I cried, kissing her lips. She didn't kiss back, she was just stone. When I let go I realized she was unconscious.
"SPENCE, you gotta hurry up!" I yelled.
            Ten minutes later we finally arrived at the hospital. Doctors and nurses came rushing towards her and putting her on a rolley-bed thing. They rolled her out of the waiting room, I followed.
"Sir you can't go back there." A nurse pulled my arm back so they were running without me.
"But- I need to be with her!" I shouted.
"Sir calm down, we will get you once we have her ready, please go wait." The blonde nurse said.
     I sighed and watched the love of my life get rolled away farther into the darkness of the hospital.