desires / fillie

blame

this one is HEATEDDDD HAHAHA

finns pov

millie and i arrive at the party, and we could hear the booming music and the smell of alcohol.

as we walk into the house, we're greeted by two girls clinging together who seem to be drunk already.
"oh hey finn who's this?" lilia asks.
"my uhh-" i start.
"girlfriend." millie finishes.
i give a surprised look to millie, thankfully the girls are too drunk to notice.
"welllll i'm lilia, aaaand this is maddie."
lilia shakes millie's hand and maddie does the same.

they ask millie if she wants a drink and she nods, following them to the kitchen. i'm left alone until gaten runs up to me.
"FINNLARD!" he laughs, with one red solo cup in one hand and his other arm around my neck.
then i see noah, who has his arms around two girls. i could tell that they were sadie and grace. i furrow my eyebrows at him and he winks back at me. i roll my eyes and walk away, trying to find millie.

i push through the crowd of drunk teenagers, leading up to the bar. i pass by couples kissing in the middle of everyone dancing.
i just want to find millie.

i spot her on the dance floor, she's jumping, laughing, smiling. i stand and watch her, unable to wipe off the goofy grin that is stuff on my face.

she catches me staring at her, and she gestures her finger for me to come dance with her.
i shake my head no, and she nods, laughing.
i give in and push through yet another crowd of teens. i finally meet her and she takes me by surprise, kissing me gently.

i can taste the alcohol on her breath.

she takes my hands and puts them on her waist, and i leave them there. her hands trail up to my neck, and i pull away, letting it linger.

she smiles, and takes my hand. she takes me into the upstairs bathroom because all of the bedrooms were occupied.

she closes the door and locks it.

she kisses me again, slower. i pull away and look into her eyes.
i can tell she isn't drunk, because her eyes are normal.
i go in again, faster.
i deepen the kiss while picking her up from under her legs on her upper thighs, setting her down on the bathroom counter. i pull her more towards me so that her bottom is the only thing on the counter.
her knees dig into my waist as we stay connected.
she leaves my lips and kisses my jaw, kissing down my neck. she hits a spot, making me let out a light moan. i hear her giggle as she goes harder on that spot.
i turn my hands onto the top of her thighs this time. i run my hands up further, while she kisses me faster every time i move my hands.

i pull away for a quick second.
"are you okay with my hands here?" i ask her.
"yes it's fine. i promise."
i smile into the kiss and move my hands up more. my fingers tracing the lining of her underwear.

she yanks my shirt off, and i take off hers. while i was kissing her neck, someone knocks on the door.

"ayo anyone in there?"
i could tell from the voice is was wyatt.

"uh yeah i'm really sick you don't wanna come in here." millie states, as she makes fake gagging noises and giggles quietly.

"oh okay well good luck with that."

we could hear his footsteps going away from the door and we laugh quietly.

after a few seconds, she leans forward and whispers ever so quietly in my ear,
"where were we?"

i smile as she kisses behind my ear and down my neck.

"we should get back out there." i say.
she pulls away and gives a pouting face.
this time i lean in, and whisper "later."
i pull away and her face is a bright red.

i laugh as i put my shirt back on, and she puts hers on.

we walk out of the bathroom hand in hand, occasionally looking back at each other, smiling.

i think i love this girl.

she tells me that she wants another drink, so i nod and walk into the kitchen.

i walk to the fridge and grab a beer for me, and one for her. i'm stopped by a tall skinny blonde with plump red lips and red cheeks.

iris.

"what do you want?" i ask.

iris and i dated almost all of freshman year, until she cheated on me with romeo beckham.

"cool it, finnie. i miss you." she states.
"sorry, you lost your chance, now can you move please?" i ask, looking at her dead in the eyes.
"not so fast finnie." she puts her index finger on my chest, coming closer. i walk backwards, bumping into the kitchen counter.
"just give me another chance, please." she requests.
"i'm with someone. someone better than you, i may add." i reply harshly, but i don't care. she deserves it.
"oh i know, you're with the suicidal girl, right?...millie, is it?" she chuckles.
i angrily push her away walking out of the kitchen. i'm stopped halfway when iris forces herself onto me, kissing me hard. i don't kiss back, i try to push her off.
when i finally do, i turn to see millie standing across the room, staring at me.

her mouth was gaped open and tears streamed down her face, while she stood frozen. paralyzed.

i run towards her, but she runs out of the house.

what the fuck, iris.

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okay i know that something just happened in the story but idrk where it's gonna go after this:/
i don't wanna end it, because they've literally only known each other for 4 or 5 days lmao.
but we'll see ;)