Him Or Her (TaeNie & YoonLice)

45

- Lisa

We are back to the house for thirty minutes already.
We had driven Chaeyoung to her own house.
I had taken a hot bath and I don't have the plan on eating dinner.

"Lisa? Princess, the dinner is ready."
       I heard him from downstairs.

"Go eat first, I don't have the appetite to eat."
        I answered and plopped my body on my bed.

Face buried on the pillow, hair probably disheveled.

I didn't hear him answer...
Maybe he didn't hear me, or maybe he is going to eat alone already.

"You need to eat, Chaeyoung said you fainted and it seems like you're weak today."
        I wasn't surprise, I wasn't shock that he really went up and demanded me to eat.

"I'll bring the food here. With appetite or without, I'll make you eat."
        With a cold tone of voice, he mouthed.

I didn't utter a word, I didn't showed an emotion and just waited.

Few moments...

"Here."
      He, once, entered again, holding a bed table with the foods on it.

I sat up...
I looked at the foods he is placing infront of me.

"Eat."
       He commanded with one word.

And without an answer, I pick the chopsticks and started eating with a normal pace.

I can feel, he is watching me.
I can feel his worried eyes gazing to my pathetic state.

"Why did you faint?"
        He asked.

I didn't look at him and just shrug my shoulders.

"Lisa."
        My name coming out from his lips made me lift my gaze to his eyes.

Worry laced on his presence.
At the corner of my eyes, I can see how he is clenching his fist as if he felt guilty.

"I don't know. Maybe I'm just tired, that's all."
        I swallowed the food and answered with an emotionless face.

He sighed...
A sigh that is very heavy.

"Lisa, I'm sorry."
       He suddenly apologized...

My eyes glued on the food...
My mouth halted from chewing...
I don't what I should feel about him apologizing.

"I..."
        My ears caught the sound of guilt on his voice.

"Why? Have you finally realized that what you said about you and Jennie are actually painful for me to hear."

"I know I have been inconsiderate when I told you some things from the past."
         There, the answer was there as he added.

I looked up at him.
I showed up an understanding smile.
I faked it.

"What's with that? Is that even relevant for me, fainting earlier?"
          I asked, with the smile on my face.

His eyes landed on his hands...
Fiddling together, guilt and nervousness are both visible on his appearance.

"No, but I feel guilty for even telling you how much I loved her."
        He stated, unable to look at me.

"You realized it late, mm?
At least you did."

"I am very inconsiderate to show you how much I am still affected with her and Taehyung. I am really insensitive to tell you every good things about Jennie when I should just tell you how much of a better person you are than her..."
       His gaze lifted to me...

And I can't prevent it but to hate the fact evident fact that he is still showing me how he is affected by her.

"Even now, that you're apologizing...
You are showing me how you are still affected."

A sudden question popped on my mind...

"I know...
It is hard not to get affected.
I know it is hard to move on and just accept things.
Even for me, it is very hard to laugh while remember how Taehyung used to be a good man for me...

But why do you need to tell me everything?
On how good of a woman is her for you?"

"Forget it. You should eat too."
        I chuckled and stated.

Trying to shrug the topic off...
I just continued eating.

I felt him moving as the bed shift.

"I'll eat after you."
        He stated and I just nodded without giving him a look.

"It is honestly painful...
How he described Jennie still lingers in my mind.
On how she used to be a very good person for him, on how he fell inlove with her..."

I still can feel that he is watching me...
Few more swallows and I finished eating.

"Thank you for the foods."
         I thanked and smile at him.

"My pleasure, my princess."
        A tiny smile was formed on his lips.

He took the bed table and went out of my room.
As the door closed, my eyes squeezed shut.

My fingers rubbed my temple.

"There's the possibility...
That he is just not aware of it but...
He is using as an instrument to forget about her."