Him Or Her (TaeNie & YoonLice)

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A:   I had seen it before and now I'm seeing it again.

Jennie had a harsh past.
Not concluding, but I can sense something.

She was asked, "If you will have a power, what it is and why?"

Her answer is at the media above.

Or perhaps, she wants to see what's in the future. No one knows, only her, herself know about it.

💎💎💎

- Jennie

"Eonnie, I'll just go outside."
      She eyed me suspiciously as I whispered.

She's still up, it's already pass 1 in the dawn and now I want to go out since Taehyung is sleeping already.

At the corner of my eyes, I also saw Lisa looking at me with doubt.

"You're not going to see him, will you?"
       She questioned with a serious tone and a cold expression.

And for a moment, I wasn't able to answer.
It's not because I will, but because she's intimidating me.

"I won't, I made a promise with him and I won't break it."
       I answered, reassuring of what I just promised earlier.

"You might want me to go with you?"
       Jisoo eonnie asked, still concern with me giving up on Yoongi.

"I honestly want to be alone, that's why I want to go out. I want to ponder everything, contemplate and refresh myself too. I need to give myself a time so I won't make a movement that may harm anyone again. Plus, I feel so heavy and I want to take down all the stuffs I'm brining for at least a little moment."
      She sighed and her eyes landed down on the ground as she contemplates whether to let me or not.

"I'll be fine, Jisoo eonnie."
      I stated and she looked up at me and inhaled.

"Fine, but go back after some time. Don't worry us."
       She stated and I nodded before looking at Lisa as a signal that I'll go.

I turned my back and went out of the door, with a slow pace, I walk on the hallway. Nurses are passing, doctors are walking, the reek of alcohol hit my nose, the cold breeze of the hospital will give you that unexplainable vibe.

I walked out of the hospital and went to the park in front of it.

There are no people, and the only noise I can hear is the cars that are passing through the main road.

As I reached the park, I sat on the bench...
I rubbed my palms together, the coldness of the wind makes me shiver. While the dark, cloudy sky makes me ponder...

"You did a huge mess..."

That was the first statement I had in mind...
And just by hearing myself saying that, I bowed down my head and heaved.

"You're dirty."

With that statement, I closed my eyes.

"Immoral.
A sinner.
You don't deserve any better."