precious ↠ e.d

twenty six - are you serious

"allie? are you okay? please open the door." ethan's voice was soft.

i shook my head, wiping the corners of my mouth from vomiting. "just a second."

"are you throwing up?" he asks.

i open the door and ethan's eyes widen. "are you okay?"

i nod, "do you have gum?"

"baby stop. obviously somethings wrong." ethan was getting frustrated. "you can't keep any food down. your mood swings are unreal. it's like you're pregnant— did you get your period yet?"

i bit my lip. "n-no. but i've been a day late before, i've been a week late before."

"doesn't matter." ethan snaps. "i don't like seeing you this way, and not knowing what exactly is wrong."

i groan, face palming myself. "just stop! i don't want to talk about it. not now, and not here!"

ethan frowns, his eyebrows close together. "fine. we'll discuss it later then."

i sigh, "let's go."

ethan and i walk towards the table, joining his family again. i motion to josie's purse and mouth the word gum, and she quickly understands, taking out a piece from her pack.

"so ethan, how long have you and mallie been together?" his aunt asks.

"mallie?" ethan asks, "her name is allie."

"right sorry." she snickers, connecting eyes with mine.

i shift in my seat, suddenly becoming uncomfortable.

"we dated in senior year of high school for a few months, before going our own ways and reconnecting again, now. so i'm not quite sure how to answer that." ethan smiles, placing his hand on mine.

"i see." she says, taking a sip of her wine.

my stomach suddenly got a sharp pain that lasted a few seconds, and i knew something was wrong, and i might've known what it was all along.

"ethan." i whisper. seeing that all of his family members were occupied talking amongst themselves.

he leans closer towards me so i can speak in his ear.

"on our way home. can we stop off at the pharmacy?" i ask shakily.

ethan and i drove straight to the drug store after the dinner without saying a word to each other. my insides were turning and i felt my palms sweating. when ethan parks the car. he looks at me. "what do you wanna get? medications?"

i shake my head, and ethan wiggles his eyebrows as he gets out of the car after me. i walk down the aisle of pregnancy tests, and ethan's mouth suddenly goes dry.

"you really think you're preg—"

"don't you?" i ask.

ethan stays quiet, and allows me to pick up three boxes.

on our drive home. i felt myself becoming anxious, what the hell was i going to do if i was pregnant? i don't think i'm mentally or finically prepared to take care of a baby. would ethan want a baby? would this affect ethan in any negative ways? god knows we weren't trying for a baby.

when we park and head inside. we don't even both to go in the living room and say goodnight to his grandparents, assuming they wouldn't hear us come in anyway.

when we got upstairs, we walked into our room and i grabbed the three tests out of the bag. luckily, we had a connecting bathroom in our room which i'm surprised we haven't used much of.

"are you sure about this?" ethan asks, staring at the tests in my hands.

"well if i'm not pregnant then i'm going to the hospital." i breathe.

"do you want me to come in with you?" he asks.

i shake my head, "i think i've got this."

ethan runs his hands through his hair and i hear him mumbling something up to God. he collapsed onto the bed and ran his hands down his face. "okay, okay. i'll be out here."

i nod. feeling some slight awkwardness between ethan and i.

i step into the washroom and unbox the clear blue brand pregnancy test, i read the instructions and it's pretty straight forward. if i'm pregnant, it'll simply spell the word pregnant if not, it'll spell not pregnant, and the other two that i got are either a positive sign if i'm pregnant, or a negative sign if i'm not.

i had a bottle of water with me, since i wanted to try at least two tests at the same time.

i took a deep breath before peeing on the first stick and fanning it off for a few seconds, before turning it upside down for about 3 minutes.

while i wait, i chug down the bottle of water to make me pee again and hear a knock on the door.

"how's it going?" ethan asks slight nervously.

"i'm doing the second one." i reply, feeling the urge to pee once more.

i set both sticks aside and wait patiently, i open the bathroom door so ethan could see the results with me. he holds my hand tightly and kisses my knuckles gently before i take a deep breath.

"ready?" i ask.

"whenever you are." he responds.

i take the two pregnancy tests and flip them over.

one saying pregnant, and the other giving a very clear +

"i'm p-pregnant." i choke.