Scattered and Broken, Book 3 of Wingless Series

Dedric

How do you ever overcome grief? Is there a way to turn off complete and utter sadness? I never thought mine would go away when Marcus died. I was so hurt I believed the empty hole was there permanently. It still felt like that sometimes. Other times I felt like I didn't think about it at all, some days it was the only thought in my head.

When someone dies, you reprogram your feelings, you teach yourself to accept they are no more, and even when you do this, your brain never really comes back from the shock and trauma, and I never really think you fully get that they're gone.

Dedric was so much like Marcus that my brain had whiplash, Sort of like I had rebooted memories about Marcus, which I had forgotten. Seeing this young guy gave me hope that Marcus was around again. In a sick way, I almost felt like he came back.

Coming out of the bedroom, I laid eyes upon Kenny all over again.

"You're beginning to become almost like a rerun." I said not in any kind of mood. Kenny raised an eyebrow at me holding a newspaper and a cup of coffee. He didn't care that he annoyed me to no end, or how I could have used the silence to get back to normal.

"I'm sorry to hear that. If you must know I was trying to make sure you came back to sanity." He said sipping his coffee and peering at me over the giant mug at the same time.

"I don't know I'm glad I entertain you, really I am Kenny."

"You tried to seduce me; I'm the one person you should hate. That totally equals out to your nuts." He said half laughing at me. "It is a little funny though I must admit."

"Stress can make a girl do crazy things. What can I really say?" I shrugged not giving in to Kenny. Now I wanted to punch him or throw something at his face. But that would have lead me nowhere, just cleaning up a mess.

"I want you to thank me for saving you from breaking his heart is what you could do." He sighed looking at me for some sort of response.

"You know Evan is still not around, so no I don't feel that bad. And we didn't do anything. And seduction is so not the word to use in this situation. Don't flatter yourself I'm sure it wouldn't have been that spectacular anyways." I walked away in a huff. Scanning the entire kitchen for something to eat, seemed like days ago I had done that.

"He is doing what is right; to make it all work out. Why don't you quit being stubborn and figure that out already?" Kenny said following me like a nat.

"Maybe I don't want to Kenny, maybe it's too much to think that he is willing to avoid me and just vanish because he wants what is right." I slammed an orange on the counter nearly squashing it.

"You believe he would leave you?" He asked growing serious.

"I believe he would do whatever it was to please Carlo. I don't believe he is banished from the family either." I started making a pile of peels as Kenny groaned at my stubbornness.

"He shot his father for you, and you think he is willing to just end things now?" Kenny asked swatting my hand to steal my attention.

"I don't know what to think Kenny, he isn't here seems to me his promises are falling empty. And honestly I don't know what to think about anything anymore." I sighed staring off I knew that wasn't the complete truth, just to see Evan right now I would have gave my right arm.

A loud knock came from the front door, we both startled before Kenny took it upon himself to answer it. I was surprised to see Gray standing there in not such a good mood. Suddenly I realized I was out of touch with family for awhile. The look on Gray was showing me that he wasn't too pleased with me.

"Hey." I said coming to stand closer to Gray.

"Where have you been?" Gray said angry looking at me in almost disgust.

"Everywhere." I said flat out. I wasn't sure how to explain or lie to him now. Kenny lingered in the kitchen probably waiting to see if I spilled everything to him. Gray scanned the house for something, not sure what. I assumed maybe Evan.

"It's been over a week since I've heard from you. I have been here more times than I can count and you're taking this as a joke?" He snapped.

"Gray, I'm fine. I'm sorry I didn't call you."

"Where is Evan?" I looked away to Kenny, Kenny cleared his throat.

"He's working uh with my Dad." He said shoving his hands in his pockets.

"Bullshit." Gray blurted out glaring at Kenny. His face red with anger, I was starting to wonder what all he knew.

"I'm sorry why is that bullshit?" Kenny asked stepping forward in an attempt to seem intimidating.

"Because pretty much anything that comes out of your mouth is." Gray moved closer as well, the manly games of macho behavior started.

"Gray I'm fine, and I really wish I would have called you. Can you calm down?" I asked grabbing his arm he pulled away looking me over.

"You are my sister Eve no I'm not going to calm down. I want to know what is going on now!" He yelled in my face.

"Dude chill out!" Kenny yelled jumping in between us. Gray look flabbergasted.

"Are you guys messing around, why are you even here?"Gray asked, Kenny laughed shaking his head and walking out of the kitchen.

"No!" I yelled. "Of course not, why would you even say something like that?"

I watched Gray as his whole body seemed to be puffed up and agitated he barely could control his breath under control. I was once his little naïve sister, and now I was more some sort of sideshow act. It seemed to always be some sort of issue with me.

Some girls would give anything to have an over protective brother. I resented it, sometimes I felt Gray was suppose to protect me from the things in our childhood that I feared the most, most of the time I felt like he was never there.

"Eve you changed, this whole thing. I don't know what it is but there's something not right." He said looking at me.

"I know that, and if I knew the answer to what was going on I would tell you but I don't." I sighed.

"Where's Evan?"

"I don't know I have no clue where he is or if he cares where I am, I don't know." I said with a shrug turning away as I started to break down all over again. Kenny and Gray both rushed to me at once. I grew stiff pulling away from them both.

"Do you want to come home with me, get out of here for awhile? Gray said brushing my hair out of my face.

"No I am staying here." I said moving away from Gray.

"I'm just glad you're ok. What is that?" He asked pulling my face up to see what was left of the gash on my mouth. I touched my mouth with my hand my eyes growing wide with shock.

Gray gripped my arm shaking my whole body as he flipped out.

"Where is he at?!"

"He didn't do this to me, stop!" I screamed grabbing Gray, Kenny jumped in once again grabbing a hold of Gray's shirt.

"It wasn't Evan who put his hands on her, just listen to her man!" They were nose to nose.

"But someone did am I right?" Kenny let Gray go backing off, I could tell by the look on his face this was becoming more of a mess either of us expected.

"I fell on some stairs while we were away, calm down gray, if you don't then just leave." I snapped playing angry to help him over the new discovery.

"I got to get out of here. I don't know Eve I hope you know what you're doing, go visit Dad sometime." He left slamming the door with a bang.

I sighed giving Kenny a glance.

"Now would be a splendid time for Evan to show his face."