Damaged. // Jasper Hale

Chapter 22

When I close my eyes I see you. But when they open, there are times where I question if you were real. If you were really here or a figure of my imagination. Something I saw in a dream maybe. But the way you made me feel reminds me that you were here. You were real, which makes me trying to forget you a million times harder.

How can you forget someone who gave you so much to remember?...

I turned the page of my diary and began to sketch with my pencil. Over the last couple of days I can't stop thinking about him. There are days where I just burst into tears. Then there are days where I just...think about him and what he's doing, where he is. If he has forgotten about me. I focused on my sketch and sighed as I realised who it was.

I coloured in his eyes before moving to his facial structure. Defining it how I remembered it to be. His wavy golden hair that always fell in front of his face sometimes. After a few more minutes I finished my drawing and drew his name across the page.

I sat there and stared at the drawing for a moment before my thoughts where interrupted by a knock on the door. "Come in" I said as I closed my diary. Dad stepped into my room and I gave him a small smile. "Hey dad. Everything ok?" I asked as he sat on my bed. "I need to talk to you" He said and I sat up properly crossing my legs as he scratched the back of his head.

"I think you and Bella should move to Jacksonville to be with your mother" He said and I scrunched my eyebrows waiting for him to continue. "The way you and Bella are right now is scaring the hell out of me and your mother. I think it would be best if you got away from here so you can forget about Jasper and move on" Dad said and I fiddled with the ends of my sleeves.

"Dad, I know you're worried and that you are just trying to look out for Bella and I but I want to stay here. I have friends here a-""Who you hardly see" Dad interrupted and I sighed. "I know dad. Things have just been...hard and I don't want them to see me like this. Moving away won't stop the pain. It won't stop the dreams. It won't help me forget him" I said to dad and he sighed.

"It's just uh...I don't know, your behaviour just isn't normal and I don't know what to do" Dad said and I looked at him sympathetically. "I know dad and I'm sorry. I don't mean to scare you" I apologised and he nodded. "If you're going to stay here, promise me you will try to forget about Jasper and try to move on. How about with that Mitchell Newton kid" Dad said and I giggled.

"His name is Mike and that's a big no because my friend Jessica likes him and she would kill me if I tried anything" I said and dad gave an award chuckle. "Ok. But seriously just promise me" Dad said and I bit my bottom lip. "Ok. I promise" I said and he smiled before getting up and kissing my head and exiting my room closing the door behind him.

I opened my diary and saw the drawing. I ripped it out and placed it in my drawer with the photo and necklace before shutting it and grabbing my phone. I dialled Angela's number; placing the phone to my ear as it rung. "Hello?""Hey Angela it's me, Ell""Oh hey Ell! What's up?""I was wondering if you maybe wanted to go out for dinner tonight since we haven't hung out in a while""Yeah absolutely. How about Chelini's? That new Italian restaurant that opened recently. I heard it has pretty good food""Yeah sure. See you at 6:30?""Sounds good. I'll see you then""Ok bye""Bye" She said before I hung up.

I checked the time and saw it was 3 pm already. I stood up and walked downstairs to the kitchen to make some hot chocolate. I turned on the kettle and waited for the water to boil as I stared out the window into the woods. I saw a flash of silver shine in the sun and squinted my eyes trying to make out what it was. It looked like a huge...dog?

I closed my eyes shaking my head before opening them and seeing nothing there. I grabbed the coco powder and poured the hot water into it mixing the two together. I then poured some milk into the mug along with 2 teaspoons of sugar. I mixed it all together and walked upstairs to my room.

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I stepped out of my truck and walked into the restaurant to see Angela sitting at a table for two texting away on her phone. I approached the table and pulled out the chair gaining Angela's attention and she smiled before standing up, wrapping me in a hug. I hugged her back and sat down after pulling away from the embrace.

"It has been so long!" She said leaning on the table and I nodded. "Yeah it has" I said back giving a small chuckle at the end. "How have you been with everything going on?" She asked before taking a sip of her juice that sat in front of her. "I've been ok I guess. That's the best way to describe it" I replied and she gave me a sad smile.

"Can I get you a drink?" A waitress said to me and I looked over at her. "Umm can I please just have a Dr Pepper?" I said and she nodded before walking away. "How have things been with Eric?" I said with a small smile and a blush rose to Angelas cheeks. "They've been great. There are times where he still acts like a child but they're fine" She said and I nodded.

"What about the Jessica and Mike situation?" I asked and she rolled her eyes playfully. "She is still obsessed with him ever since prom. But he isn't interested in her as much as she thinks he is. Quite sad but funny really. She claims he is still infatuated with you" She said and I sighed an over exaggerated playfully.

"I know. It is exhausting. That is all she ever talks to me about" She said, annoyance hinting in her voice and I giggled. The lady returned with my drink placing the cool glass in front of me. "Thank you" I said to her as she walked away. "How is Bella?" She asked looking up from the menu that sat in her hands. "She's isolated herself to her room" I said and Angela pursed her lips to the side.

"It's funny isn't it; how someone can come into your life and effect you so much"