Going Home

chapter 14

Edited

Tasha laid awake, running everything from that night through her head. The last thing she wanted to do was get her family into this mess. She sighed as she shifted again, trying to get comfortable. To no avail she huffed and silently slipped out of the bed, making sure not to disturb Happy. She grabbed her hoodie and made her way out to the kitchen. She saw Tig sitting at the table with a glass of whiskey in his hand.

"Hey, doll. You should be sleeping." he said quietly.

Tasha sat down with a heavy sigh as she pulled her legs up to her chin. She took the glass from him and took a long sip and felt the burn down her throat before she looked up at him. "All this shit is swirling around in my head and I just can't shake the bad feeling I've got." she admitted. "I know if I tell Jax, he's just gonna try and protect me more."

Tig sat back in his chair, choosing his words before he spoke. "Listen doll. He protects you because he has the same fear running through him. He's scared that he's gonna lose you too." he explained. "But everything is gonna work out."

"I feel guilty for bringing this to you guys. You just went legit and here I am fucking everything up. You know if anything ever happened to any of you I could never forgive myself." she said as her eyes began to tear up.

"You can't think like that, sweetheart. You know this club would go to the gates of hell for you.You may not have a patch, but you are SAMCRO. It's in you. In your blood." he tapped her head lightly. "You just gotta tap into it."

She smiled at his words and downed the rest of his drink. "Thanks Tiggy." she said as she got up from her seat and kissed his cheek. "Love you." She walked back to her room, feeling a little better about everything. Tomorrow was a new day and she was going to tap into that SAMCRO mindset.

The next morning she woke up feeling more like herself than she had since all this started. The talk with Tig really helped get her head right. When she got up, she grabbed her bag of tricks and made her way out to the back of the cabin. She went through her clips, making sure each one was loaded and checked her over her gun.

She looked at her watched and smiled wickedly as she set up a few cans for targets and taking her stance a few yards away. She took a clip from her back pocket and slid it into place before removing the safety and firing at the targets.

The sound of shots echoed through her surroundings as she fired round after round, hitting every target. She smiled as she heard the sound of footsteps running from the cabin and turned to see most of the members of SAMCRO out in the mid morning sun, in their underwear with guns drawn.

"Bleeding mother of Christ, Lass!" Chibs yelled out. "Are you looking to get shot again?"

Tasha couldn't hold in her laughter any longer when she turned to see Tig, Standing in all his glory, hands on his hips. "Sorry boys." she said through gasps of laughter. "I needed to get some practice in and you fuckers needed to get your asses out of bed so we can get this party started.

"Looks like our little talk helped, huh?" Tig said as she loaded another clip and fired, hitting every target.

She smirked and nodded. "You reminded me of who I am, Tiggy. Now go put some goddamn pants on, before you scar me for life."

Tig feigned offense before winking at her and heading inside with the rest of the guys. Happy walked up behind her and slipped his arms around her waist, while she fired a few more shots. "You good?" he asked as he kissed her shoulder lightly.

She nodded, putting the safety on, leaning into him. "Just needed to get out of my head. I couldn't sleep last night and ended up having a heart to heart with Tig. Helped me get out of my head."

He kissed the side of her neck, "Jax is meeting with O'Shea in an hour. We should know more then." He said softly. "But you and I need to get ready. We meet with Hale in a little while right?"

"Yea. We meet in a little over an hour." she said as she turned around in his arms, slipping her arms up around his neck.

"Everything is gonna work out. We're gonna get Lowen and all this shit will be over." he assured her. She leaned up on her tiptoes landing a soft kiss to his lips as he gripped her hips and pulled her in closer.