ONLY YOU. || Erwin Smith X Reader

Obstinacy and Regret

I'm crying.

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"Stay here, you two. Me and Cadet Ackerman will search the perimeter. Cadet, Let's move out." Flagon said, and he went off without another word. Levi hesitated, he looked back at Farlan and Isabel. "We'll be fine! Go on!" Farlan reassured, Levi then nodding. "See you on the other side!" Isabel cupped her mouth with a hand as she yelled to Levi, slowly dissapearing into the thick, moist fog.

The horseshoes stomping against the muddy ground, Levi stood his ground as he sped up his horse. Translucent fog hitting his eyes causing him to squint slightly. Rain started to poir, and it slowly's building up.

This is my chance to end everything once and for all. I'll have to take a detour if that's the ca—

He stopped his thoughts as he starts seeing blood splatters and puddles that have already been mixed with the pungent smell of rainwater. His heart quickened, Made his horse stroll along slowly. He held his breath at the eerie sight, until he saw a man reaching out to him.

"..Flagon?" Levi muttered.

"Over.. there." Said Flagon, crippled as he dies from a huge loss of blood. A thud to the ground, Levi widened his eyes in shock.

Wait, Don't tell me..!!!

He swiftly turned to look behind him, then seeing a trail of huge footprints.

Don't tell me I passed by it...!?!?

Levi quickly yanked the reins of his horse and set foot to follow the tracks.

Isabelle..! Farlan..!!

Rain hitting his face, he closed his eyes as his horse doesn't stop. He peeked his eyes open until his horse trips, sending him flying off his horse with a painful grunt. He tried to stand up but he froze, sat still.

Looking at the severed head of his beloved.

Isabel.

His pupils dilated, his heart slowly breaking. Isabel's mouth slightly open, as her dull eyes stared into his soul. He removed his sight at Isabel and looked at a nasty titan making noises.

The titan spat out a body, but half of it. Levi had his eyes dilated more, clearly knew it was Farlan.

In a split second, he gritted his teeth, then drawing his blades and charged at the titan. Tears began to grow out of his eyes as he screamed in pain and anger. Cuts here and there inflicted on the titan, all that was in his mind was regret, revenge, and loss.

The rain then began to simmer down, Levi still throwing all his rage on the monstrous titan. Until he heard a bunch of neighing horses, he stopped as he kneeled in-front of the now dead titan, crying his eyes out, his raven hair shielding his eyes from the sunlight that bloomed from the grey dully clouds.

Mike sniffed the air, the so pungent smell took over his senses. (F/N) got off her tall horse and approached him, "I warned you." She said, her eyebrows furrowing.

She crossed her arms, the beautifully rain-painted face of hers wrinkled in a blank emote. Erwin dropped a scroll onto the muddy ground, layered with blood.

"The papers are false." He stated, calmly.

"...You!" Levi yelled, lunging at Erwin with a blade. (F/N),  and Mike widened their eyes at the sudden attack. Shockingly, Erwin caught his blade, by the hand. Blood oozing from his hand, blood then dripping to the ground rapidly. (F/N) showed a slight cringe at how painful it looked, Erwin maintained his composure as Levi shivers with anger and glares daggers at his ice-blue eyes.

"You knew from the very start! You compromised us! You devil!" Levi growled, yelling every word he spat out, full of venom. "You shouldn't've trusted that man you passed by at the surface." Erwin furrowed his eyebrows. "Damn you-" Levi yelled but Erwin silenced him with a straight intervene.

"(F/N) warned you, but you were too careless and obstinate." He said, Levi froze and kneeled, staring into space or what.

"Don't regret it. If you do, you'll fail on your next decisions and you'll make others take them. That way you'll have a sure death." Erwin said, then climbed on his horse, his bleeding hand stained the reins of his horse. (F/N) did the same, and headed out first, Erwin headed out next, and so did Mike and the others.

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"Actually, that did hurt a lot." Erwin groaned as he sat down on a couch in his office, looking at his badly wounded hand. (F/N) held a medical kit from her office as she brought it with her. "You could've used a different way to defend yourself from him, you know?" (F/N) sighed, setting some disinfectant and a few tools.

Erwin seethed a gust of air as he tries to subside the pain. (F/N) dipped a towel in a small tub full of warm water beside her, and applies it to the deep wound. He bit his lip as he muffles his cope of pain.

"Don't cope yet, much worse is coming." She said, then she poured a rightful amount of disinfectant on a huge fluff of a cotton ball. She picked it up with a pair of tongs and brought it up to the wound. Her hand under his, "Take a deep breath." (F/N) concentrated and zipped her mouth after. Erwin nodding and then (F/N) applies the disinfectant.

Erwin closed his eyes tight, sealing all his reactions from pain. (F/N) tried to comfort him by rubbing her thumb across the back of his hand as she keeps applying disinfectant to the wound. After what seemed like forever, (F/N) finally took out the bandages and started to wrap it around his hand, carefully. The whole scene was silent, that's when Erwin decided to break it. "So.. uhm. How are things with you and Hanji? Are you both in good terms?" Erwin awkwardly asked.

"Oh, never caught up with her. Probably somewhere around this hour where I can go... apologize and all." (F/N) said, sighing as she finishes wrapping it up and then adds a pin to secure the bandage onto him.

"And that should do it." (F/N) tugged a small smile in her lips. "Thank you." Erwin smiled as he stood up and back on his feet from the couch. "You really need to settle things with Hanji, she seems to be upset." Erwin frowned a little. "I figured." (F/N) looked away as she crossed her arms.

"..Also." Erwin pulled (F/N) by the waist close to him. An arm around her waist, and his injured hand cupped on (F/N)'s skin-fair face. "If we have these mutual feelings.. would you keep this a secret?" Erwin asked, Leaning in close to her. Their noses were two inches away from touching. (F/N) widening her eyes, clearly flushed.

"Like, keeping this relationship a secret?" Erwin whispered. (F/N) had a sweat drip down one side of her face. "Erwin, I don't e-even know..." She stuttered, Erwin rubbing his thumb against her face. "If we let any of the people here know,, then we'll get executed for sure. We have to get contracts and all that for this to be agree on, but it'll make us leave the our jobs." She explained carefully. "In other words... I'm scared." She frowned, her full face features softened. "(F/N). There is no need to be afraid, I understand. Really." Erwin chuckled as he gave a quick kiss on her forehead.

"It's okay if we can end this. Just say the word." Erwin said, comfortingly.

"Y'know..." (F/N) then gave a tender kiss on his lips. "Maybe I can live with that." She smiled, then had herself off of him. "I'll be in my office." She said, waving as she left Erwin's office, leaving him at awe.

(F/N),, I still need to know something about you.