Touch Me, Don't Love Me // styles

t w e n t y

We were silent during the few minutes that we drove home. When I finally parked the car infront of the house we both opened our doors and got out. I walked to the front door and Lily followed. I stopped before opening the door and took out my pack of cigarettes and lit one.

"Get inside." I told Lily. She obeyed and closed the door behind her.

I hope she goes inside her room because I don't want to fight over the things that happened today right now. All I want to do is take a shower and sleep.

But when I opened the door and stepped inside, I heard some movements in the kitchen which means that I still have to face her. I walked towards the kitchen and she was in front of the microwave waiting for it to beep.

"What are you doing?" I asked.

"I haven't had dinner yet." She said as if I should have already known.

"Didn't your friend invite you for dinner too?" She stopped what she was doing and looked at me.

"We were done by 4 Harry. I was texting and calling you but you weren't picking up. I waited there for 2 hours till he offered to walk me home." She explained.

So he walked her home huh? I still wasn't sure if that was the Travis guy she was talking about in her diary or not. If he was then why is she acting like she didn't like the fact that she stayed in his house longer or that he walked her here?

She took the bowl from the microwave and sat it on the counter. She took a spoon from the drawer and sat down on the stool and started eating.

"Well thank god he walked you home." I said sarcastically.

"Yeah. He even offered to stay here with me and wait for you." When She said that, I swear that I almost lost it.

"You let him inside the house?!" I almost yelled.

"Yes? Is something wring with that?" There she goes. Acting all innocent again.

"And what did you do? Go up to your room or something?" I wasn't suppoed to say that. It just slipped right out. She stopped scooping into her food and stood up.

"What's your problem Harry? Why are you suddenly acting like this? You're always mad and shouting at me when I didn't even do anything wrong." She said.

My problem is that ... I think I got it bad for you.

"You did nothing wrong? You let a stranger in the house while you're all alone and how about that guy from the party? You don't even know him and you took that drink from him."

"He's not a stranger... he's my friend and he can be trusted. And that guy from the party, he's a senior in our school and we actually know each other. And I told you..." Her voice is already shaking and I can see a tear threatening to spill out of her eyes. "... I told you that I didn't drink that... that-" She was already wiping her eyes.

But still I didn't stop. "You're just sixteen Lily, you shouldn't even be flirting with some guy at a party or any guy at all."

Her mouth fell open like I just insulted her. "Flirting? I wasn't Harry. And who are you even to tell me that? You're talking like you're not just two years older than me and you're not even my brother."

"No Lily. You... are not my sister, my mom just adopted you so she won't feel bad about herself when she-"

"Are you jealous?" Her question caught me off guard.

"What?" I asked.

"Are you jealous that other guys talk to me? Is that why you're saying all this hurtful things? I know that you don't mean what you just said about mom."

"What? I'm not jealous Lily. Don't even start with that."

"You are Harry." She said softly. "You always worry about what I'm wearing and you wanted to drive me earlier when you found out I was going to a guy's house and you flipped out when I told you he came home with me."

"Stop it! I don't even see you thay way!" I am more than angry right now and at the same time I want to admit that I was really jealous.

"Then how about what happened last night? Does that also mean you feel nothing for me?" She's doing it again. She's tempting me into giving in.

"That was nothing Lily! It was a-" Then she cut me off for the first time.

"Mistake?" She asked wiping again another tear.

"I have no time for this Lily. If you need me for anything else except to fight with then I'd be in my room." I turned around and walked towards the stairs.

"For me it's not..." She said in almost a whisper. I stopped and slowly turned around.

"What?"

"It's not a mistake for me Harry."

"What are you saying?" I said softly.

"That I wish... that..."

"That what Lily?" I asked. Eager for an answer. I took a step towards her while she thought about what to say.

"That you didn't have to be my brother."

"Because you hate me?"

"No... because I think... I think I like you."

I let out a breath.

"You don't know how many times I've wished for that too..."

"Wha... Why is that?" She asked as if afraid of what my answer will be.

"Because I'm not supposed to want my sister this way." She slowly walked around the counter, keeping her hand on top of it. I can see her chest rising and falling.

"Would you take it back again in the morning?" She asked.

"If you will let me kiss you like that again... then I swear to you that I won't."

"But this isn't right is it?"

"It's wrong in so many ways... but I've waited long enough for it to happen."

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