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f i f t e e n

"Is this what you wanted Lily? Is this what you want?" I breathed against her neck.

She moaned in pleasure while I kissed her neck.

"Answer me Lily." I stopped kissing her and looked her in the eyes.

Her eyes were wide. If they could talk they'd tell me she wanted more. But I need to know if this is what she wanted. I need to know if this is why she's been acting different lately. Has she always wanted me too? If she did then I've wasted all this time trying to stop myself from doing what I just did.

"Yes Harry." She finally answered.

"Where do you want me to kiss you?" I asked.

She didn't say anything but just grabbed me by my hair and pushed her lips to mine. I wanted so bad to take her sweater off and rip her leggings but I have a feeling that this isn't the right time for that yet.

I moved my lips to her jawline. Kissing every inch of skin.

"I wanted to do this so bad the first time I moved here." I whispered to her when I reached her ear.

I slid my hands inside her sweater causing her to pant even more. I can't bare how tight I'm getting in my pants but I don't want to push it further than here. I have to see what might happen first after tonight.

When I was about to put my hands over her chest, she stopped me and I looked at her.

"What is it?" I asked.

"Did you hear that?" She said.

Suddenly I heard the door closing downstairs. Mom. Fuck if Lily didn't hear her coming then I must not have noticed it too given my concentration on controling myself from taking her clothes off.

We suddenly shuffled out of the bed making sure not to make too much noise.

"It's mom. Go to your room Lily. Be quiet and fix your hair." I was breathing so hard. I went around the bed and picked up the shirt I tossed earlier on the floor and put it on. "I'm going downstairs. Go change or take a shower or something." I tried to relax myself before going down. I don't want mom thinking that I've been up to something.

Lily was finally in her room and started down the stairs.

"Hey. Is Lily home? She texted me about going to the library and catching the bus home." My mom asked.

"Uhm yeah... I was a... asleep and I think she's in her room already. I think I heard her down here a while ago." I could not hlp my stutter. I just hope I don't seem so nervous.

"Harry is it okay if you look after Lily for a while? I have this meeting outside of town tomorrow and I won't be homw for two days."

"Mom, Lily's 16. She'll be fine with you gone for just two days." I tried to sound as if I wasn't just thinking of all the things I could do to her with mom gone.

"I know Harry. But she forgets to text me or call back sometimes. I just get worried. I just want you to make sure she doesn't stay out late at night."

"Okay... I guess I can do that."

"I know you two don't talk much honey..." yeah we don't talk much but guess what we just did? My subconcious said.

"I know mom it's okay. I'll just drive her where she needs to go and pick her up." I offered.

"You'd do that?" Mom looked at me.

"Uhm yeah. That's until you get back anyway." I added so I don't seem suddenly nice about this.

"Sure. That's good enough for me. Where is she anyway? Can you tell her to come down, I'll talk to her about tomorrow." My heart suddenly picked up speed again.

I went up the stairs slowly thinking about how I'd look at her after what just happened. When I reached her door I lightly knocked.

She opened it immediately as if she was just listening in on the door. When she opened I noticed that she has already changed into her pajamas and her hair was in a neat bun on the top of her head.

"She wants to talk to you." I told her.

"What? Why? Did she find out?" Her breathing suddenly became heavier.

"No no. She... she just wants to tell you something." She finally relaxed.

"Okay." She walked passed me and started to go back to my room.

When she was about to take the first step down I called her.

"Yeah Harry?" She said in a loud whisper.

"We... Uhm- let's... " I sighed. "Just forget about what just happened." She didn't say nothing just like she always does. She just turned around and headed downstairs.

I know it's impossible to just forget about what we did. The adrenaline rush is still pumping through me. I know I won't have any sleep again tonight. I don't know if it will be the same for her. But I do know that she did like what happened. For some reason I could tell by the way she moved towards me when I warned her what I'll do to her if she did and by the way she kissed and moaned under me that she wanted it as much as I did. But... it has to stop before it goes any further than this.

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