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We were in the car moments later after I've changed. Lily slid into the passenger seat just texting away on her phone. I bet she's texting her partner. If I could just grab her phone, throw it out the window and have her attention on me then I would. I entered the driver's seat and slammed the car door a little bit harder than usual which made Lily jump up but is still focused on her phone.

"Seatbelt." I said. I waited five seconds before I reached over to her side and buckled it for her which caught her off guard. Before I moved back I stared at her and even tried to take in her scent. She smelled of sweet cherry. It would have been very creepy if she heard me inhale when I was leaning in to her. "I said seatbelt." I told her when she finally looked at me while still leaning into her.

"Sorry... I didn't hear." She was looking at me like she was scared of what she's seeing. I've never been like his with her. I just can't help it. It's hard controlling every bit of what I feel for her.

"Of course. You were busy." I said then moved back and started the car. "Where does he live?"

"Near the corner coffee shop. You would just see it when you turn right." She directed.

"You've been in his house before?" Who knows? She's probably been in that house numerous times.

"Yes. He's uhm... we're kind of pretty close."

"Text me when you're done."

"You know it's okay... It's not that far and I like walking ho-"

"I'll pick you up. Just text me okay? I'll be at this... uhm party but I'll leave to get you later." It felt weird telling her where I'd be and what I'll be doing. With that she just nodded.

"Harry... please don't be mad at me. I'm not going to tell mom." Now it was her who caught me off guard. Never did I think that she would tell mom what happened.

"I know you won't."

"Then what is it? I'm sorry if... if I forced you to-" I stopped her right there. She think she forced me to kiss her?

"No Lily you didn't force me to do anything. It was my fault. I should have known better. You're my... you're my sister Lily and I don't want to hurt you and I don't want to hurt mom. What happened was a mistake. It was my mistake. I couldn't control myself. Please don't think that I'm some kind of a pervert or something. By the end of this year I'll be gone to college and I don't want anything bad to happen before I do." She was looking at me the whole time that I was talking. I don't look at her so I couldn't guess what she was thinking about.

We stopped in front of her friend's house. I didn't look at her thinking that she's take the hint that I didn't want her to say anything else and just walk out the car.

"Harry I-"

"Let's not talk about it right now. Please." I finally looked at her. It seemed like she would cry if I say anything else.

"Text me and I'll be here." I reminded her.

"Okay."

She opened the car door slowly and stepped out. I watched her as she walked the path leading to the big white door. She stopped and rung the doorbell. After a few seconds a guy opened the door. I'm guessing that's him. He's taller than Lily and he had a huge smile on his face. I heard him welcome her in and then Lily looked back at me and waved. I just nodded once and started the car and drove back.

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If I get votes and comments I'll post chapter eighteen later tonight :)