𝓑𝓵𝓪𝓬𝓴 𝓜𝓪𝓻𝓴𝓮𝓽 || 𝐁𝐓𝐒 𝐱 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫

Monster that i am

It's been awhile since me and and Jungkook have started working together. Surprisingly Mr. Namjoon really likes him and thinks he's a good worker. Honestly I love working with him, it makes me feel save and confident. The only thing is I always work later than him, so when his shift ends I have to stay behind. I usually have to lock up at 10:00, so it gets scary.

Tonight was one of those normal boring nights. Not many people were in the cafe now, so I was just on my phone. I saw someone step up to the register to pay, so I set my phone down and looked at the costumer. His face was covered by a face mask so I couldn't see anything. He had his hands in his pockets also which confused me. Why would you keep your hands in your pockets if you're going to pay. "Hey sweet heart why don't you give me everything in that register right now" I froze with fear. This guy was surly dangerous. "How bout you get out of here before I call the cops" the words practically were shoved out of my mouth. "Woahh!" He seemed amazed but I was confused as to why he was amazed . "You gotta act quicker than that (Y/N). You know one of these days I'm not gonna be here and you're gonna get robbed." "You JERK!" I shouted at him and immediately started hitting him. Even though I was mad at him I still was happy he was here.

After the last costumers left me and Hoseok decided to sit down and have a cup of tea. It was just us in the cafe so we talked and relaxed. It was nice spending time with him like this. We had actually gotten to be really close and it was new for me. "Ive never known what it's like to feel true love, pure love...real love" I said staring into my cup of tea, tracing the edges of the cup with my index finger.

Suddenly Hoseok grabbed both of my hands. I looked up at him in a "thanks for trying to comfort me kind of way" but then that expression changed when I saw the way he looked at me. His look was sincere and full of feeling. I found myself drowning in his eyes like an ocean. I couldn't pull myself out, no..I didn't want to pull myself out. I wanted to be lost in those eyes that could fill anyone with hope.

Even though I didn't want to I pulled away from the hands pulling me closer to him. "I need to start closing up" I said getting up. Hoseok got up as well "oh, uhh..yeah I'll see you at home.". He was right next to me at this point. Again I was drowning but I was in deeper. I didn't realize how close I was to him at first but then I realized when I felt his chest push against mine as he breathed. He was looking down at me and I was looking up at him. It was completely silent.

I felt a sudden push up against my lips as if someone was kissing me...and someone was. Hoseoks lips were so warm and felt so right where they were. I kissed him back even though I knew I shouldn't. His hands were around my waist and they stayed there thankfully.

Everything was happening at the same time even though it seemed like nothing was happening. He pulled away and looked up like he was frustrated. He pushed his bangs back and then I could tell he was frustrated. I looked down at the ground feeling like I was the one who made him upset. I saw his legs move from out of my view, and then the beep of the door behind me went off. It was there to tell me when someone was leaving.

I stood there alone in the quiet space for a while before I realized what I had just done. Should I tell Jungkook? Should I just let it be? I don't know what'll happen if I tell Jungkook. He'll hate me for the rest of my life if I tell him. All these thoughts were filling my head, as tears filled my eyes. I turned my head towards the glass door.

Tears kept drowning out my sight as I cleaned up the cafe. It was finally time for me to go home but I knew who was there. Hoseok would surly be there and my room isn't fixed yet, so I've been sleeping in the bed with Hoseok. I didn't want to go back home and I didn't want to stay at Jungkook's. I ended up calling Jimin to see if I could stay at his house.

The phone was ringing and I was still crying, standing outside of my workplace. "Hello" "Jimin..." I was trying to sounds okay but I knew u was greatly failing. "(Y/N) what's wrong?" "Can..can I stay with you tonight?" "Yeah, where are you" the seriousness in his voice went up five octaves as he said that. "Outside my work" I sniffled. My breath was now being jerked back into my throat. "I'm gonna pick you up just stay there, don't get kidnapped" he said and then hung up.

I waited about 15 minuets before Jimins car lights lit up the side walk. He got out and ran to me. He grabbed my hands and crouched down. I saw the worry in his eyes as he asked me repeatedly if I was okay. "What happened?" "No-nothing I'm just really tired" "then why did you call me crying" "I stubbed my toe" "okay whatever we'll argue about this when we get to the house" he said helping me up off of a chair outside my work. He opened the car door for me as I got in.

We arrived at his house 15 minuets later. He turned the car lights off and we sat there in the darkness of his driveway in his car. "What's wrong.." "nothing" "(Y/N) just tell me what's wrong" his voice was now in a tone of concern. "I-if I tell you then....then you might get mad" "(Y/N) you know I've never been mad at you" "not at me...at him.." "at who?...did he touch you?" His voice went completely baritone. "Did Jungkook touch you...did he hurt you" he started to sound angry. "No!..no...it-it was..." "oh no" I knew he knew what u was about to say. "Hoseok" i said looking at him. I could tell he was frustrated but from sadness. "But it's not like he touched me inappropriately it's more of...I don't know"

Jimins eyes started to water. "We kissed....and the main reason I'm upset is because I-I kissed him back..." "so he didn't make you do anything?" "No...it just happened" "yeah well things happen...but that doesn't mean I'm okey with this" "I know...I'm sorry" "no it's okey I'm not your boyfriend...but Hoseok is my best friend.." "I know and-" "no its just...your like a little sister to me.." "oh...I see".

The rest of that night I spent in Jimins couch thinking about what had happened. I couldn't stop thinking about how much of a monster I was. The way I made Jimin upset, the way I made Hoseok upset, and the way I was fixing to hurt Jungkook was all to much for me. The darkness filled me yet once again. Everything I lived was crumbling in front of me like an old statue and it's all my fault. Why do I always hurt people...