Recently jimins been visiting me at the hospital. He comes with this look of pity on his face when he walked through the door, I can't stand it. Don't feel bad for me at least I'm not like other people in this place.
After a while that pity goes away and we actually have fun and laugh. We talk about old times, and things that happened just last week. I love jimin n I really do but I can't tell him...I can't tell him why I can't leave just yet.
To be honest none of them know. Hoseok cant know or it would upset him, jimin cant know because he'd try anything he could to fix things, and Jungkookie can know cause it would hurt him.
Jimin says that recently he's been living the same life over and over again he feels. I said that it's all he does know. He wakes up, goes to work, comes here, goes home, and sleeps. I wish things were better for them.
Jimin says that when he comes here he's not really getting the full nutrition he needs, and by nutrition I mean fun. The only times we actually are really happy are on Tuesdays, and Thursdays. Those are the days we can go on the roof. "Jimin...I feel like I'm in a mental institution, I'm here all the goddamn time" "I know, but you're not crazy and that's all that matters. Both you and I know that you don't belong there" he smiled and then got up to pack his bag.
"Aww~ are you leaving?" "Yeah I gotta get up early" "Hey, we should sneak up on the roof" jimin paused what he was doing and turned around. "You're bad, very very bad" "so" I smiled back at him "You're bad?" I said poking my two index finger together. "I'm the only one who's allowed to be bad" "What am I suppose to be" "my guardian angel" he smiled at me throwing his bag over his shoulder.
"Come on~~ it's so boring here, and even if you don't do it with me I'm still gonna do it, so might as well have fun." I smiled at him. "Lord help you" he said grabbing my hand and helping me up.
We walked into the hallway and looked for people, nurses, doctors, etc. "so do you got a plan" he laughed. "Shh, no" I whispered, throwing myself against the wall on accident. "Are you okay?" Jimin laughed. "Shut up!! Just keep walking" "you're really bad at whispering" he smiled and continued walking.
We eventually made it into the roof and the fresh air stung my skin. The cold air blowing in my eyes, making them water was enough for me to be happy. There was brick lining on the outer part of the roof. Jimins instincts are to run to the edge, and stand with his hands out like he's flying. "JIMIN!" I yelled against the cold air blowing in my face. "Ya!! You should come over here" " noo!! I'd fall!!" "Don't worry I'll keep you balanced, just hold my hand!!" "No way!" I laughed "(Y/N)!! Do you trust me!" He yelled holding out his hand. " No!" I laughed back at him and shook my head.
He jumped down off of the brick and walked over to me. He grabbed my hand like that day he saved me, and looked me in my eyes. "(Y/N) do you trust me" he said more calm this time. I nodded in response.
He gently led me over to the edge. He held onto my waist so I could step up on the brick. My muscles in my leg were still redeveloping and thankfully jimin has patience. He stayed on the original roof flooring as I stood on the brick. I turned around to face him, and rested my hands on his shoulders.
Our eyes locked on each other like the key was thrown in the Red Sea. Breaths matching like a pattern filled with all sorts of colors and shapes. Heart beats beating together like a drum circle.
"Jimin-ah~" I said like I was drunk off his nice minty scent mixed with the warm ora that vaporized off him. My smile was bigger than it's been in a while. Jimins hands gripped my waist tighter when I stumbled.
"Jimin-ah~~" I knew I had his attention when he looked up from his hands to my eyes. "Jimin, you've always been there for me since day one. I've felt love that could only come from you. From that night I fell asleep outside listening to you sing, I felt like I wanted to know you forever. You truly have my heart jimin. What amazes me is that you have my heart, and even though we've had some pretty big fights that ended in tears in both ends, you've never shattered my heart. These hands that are keeping me from falling are doing much more than that right now jimin...there holding me up emotionally. Without you jimin I would have already jumped off this building. You are the definition of my happiness, you are my smile, my laugh, my life...I love you Park Jimin" I finished with a tear freezing from the cold.
Jimins face had a mixture of emotion. Happy, confused, sad, but most of all..love, relief. "(Y/N) I LOVE YOU TO!!" He yelled into the sky, picking me up and swung me around.
He set me down to face him, and he put his hands on my shoulders, and bent down so his face met mine. "No matter what you do or what happens to you I will never give up on saving you from whatever comes your way. You can call me your bodyguard, or shield, or whatever you want. I am 100% always going to love you with a burning passion...I love you" he hugged me as I cried into his shoulder.
These tears aren't from happiness though..
There from sadness....
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𝓑𝓵𝓪𝓬𝓴 𝓜𝓪𝓻𝓴𝓮𝓽 || 𝐁𝐓𝐒 𝐱 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫
Fanfiction(Y/n)s life is threatened by a black marketeer Min Yoongi who had adopted her just to feed his bank account. When the two seemingly get along well things sink a lot deeper. As she runs away from her problems with the man of her dreams Jeon Jungkook...
