Walls (Leonardo x Reader)

5 Years Gone Since

I sat at her grave I had put out in the country. Each year I visit it on the anniversary of her death to put down blue roses. It was her favorite. I walked over to the grave stone and smiled, placing the flowers onto the soft ground beneath me. I knelt down in front and decided to talk to her. After all, being dead sound quite boring and lonely.

"Hey hon. I just came to say hi. It's been different without you. Vivian's temper has died down a lot. Yeah, she's doing yoga now. My brothers miss you. Especially Mikey, he always asks me if my spirit might want to play basketball sometime. I hope you do. As for me.. well I've been coping. I know you'd want me to move on an think rationally. I just wish I could've had one last kiss before you died. That's something I'll always miss... your pretty soft pink lips. You really were my everything." I smile as a couple tears roll down my cheek. "Oh jeez, I'm being sappy again aren't I? I'm so sorry I know you hate emotional stuff. I guess I'll say goodbye and head home."

I hop into my car and take one final look at the grave. It's been 5 years and I still haven't healed. I guess the wounds to the heart don't heal nearly as fast as physically wounds. I got up and realized how much my appearance had changed since I last saw her.

My bandages wrapped up my arms and they were darker now. The color on my mask had worn a bit making the edges lighter, with minor rips and tears that I had seen myself. I know had my clan symbol tattooed on my upper left arm. Casey did it for me and I've never regretted it. I have chips and scratched in my shell from numerous battles. I wonder if I saw her if she would even recognize me?

Well, of course, she would. What other teenage mutant ninja turtle wearing a blue mask does she know?

I still act as if she's alive. Some days I want to believe she is... but I can't let denial set in. A lot of my coping cane from the help of Master Splinter and his spirit coming to talk. It seems as every Hamato Master has lost the love of their life.

It's been so long... Raph is growing a dad beard, What with Mona being pregnant now... I didn't like that they could even conceive a child together! I mean, she's a salamander alien! But I guess even a turtle and a salamander can conceive.

I hopped back in my car and drove back into the city. I watched the lights and building pass me. It seemed as everything was just blobs and blues of color as my memories began to restore. Every moment spent with her. I only felt this way on the anniversary of her death. Every other day I felt better than this.

I walked into the lair, and of course, it was the usual. Sweat, lilac, pizza. The sound of Donnie screaming at his experiment assaulted my ears and I flinched. I opened his lab door to check in the guy. He too was different.

Assaulted and battered as well, bandages standing up his arms, same tattoo. I looked at his shiny metal arm. He was badly injured in a fight and lost the usage of his arm, in so he built a robotic one. It works just as well as his other arm! He's the greatest genius I know.

He was sitting in his chair, fanning his face and lifting his goggles. April lifted her goggles giggling at Donnie for the smoke stains on his face. She too had smoke stains. He sighed and humbled and threw out his batch.

"What are you working on?"

He looked up and smiled gently, knowing I was extremely sensitive today. He swiveled his chair around and stood up walking over to me. He pointed to his desk.

"Workin on something absolutely world changing! This little guy right here-" he held up a modified Gameboy. "Is going to track down (Y/n)! I have a hunch she's still alive! I just need to-"

"Donnie stop. You don't need to do this."

"I'm sure she's alive! She is a mutant after all! I'd bet ya she's in hiding right now! But I have reason to believe that she's hiding in a small town called New Hartford! I found her mutagen signal!"