Walls (Leonardo x Reader)

I do!

Yesterday...

Yesterday I found where I truly belong...

I found friends...

I found family...

I found my home.

It's been distracting me from my own personal training. I was on a rooftop alone, practicing my with my long sword. My slashes, My strikes, my footwork. I kept trying to focus but that little voice in the back of my head kept trying to speak to me.

Her voice kept trying to get through my noisy thoughts. You don't deserve this. You're a danger! I know it's not true. Leo told me it wasn't, and I trust Leo. The voice began to get louder as I began to focus on her.

Her soft whispers soon turned to shouting, screaming! I held my head as a migraine set in. The pain was so bad I began to cry slightly. I held my head and fell to my knees. God damnit! How long will this torture last!

YOU DON'T DESERVE THIS! YOU'RE GOING TO HURT THE PEOPLE YOU LOVE! YOU'RE NOTHING AND THAT'S ALL YOU'LL EVER BE! NO ONE LOVES YOU!

I stood up and grabbed my sword. I messily swung my sword at the AC unit, effectively slashing through the metal, breaking the system. I screamed and grabbed my head as that little voice shrieked in my head all the things I hate about myself.

YOU'RE A FAILURE! EVERYTHING YOU'VE EVER LOVED IS GONE BECAUSE OF YOU! VIVIAN WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AND YOU USED LEO! THIS ISN'T YOU'RE FAMILY! THIS IS THE BIGGEST LIE YOU'LL EVER HAVE!

"LEAVE ME ALONE!"

I screamed and slammed the tip of my sword into the concrete roof. I used it as support as I began to slide down to my knees. I clung to the sword my mother gave me. I leaned my cheek into the flat face and cried, hoping it would be mom. I hoped so dearly she would come back and wrap her loving and wise arms around me, braid my hair back neatly, love me, guide me... tell me what to do!

I hate being in charge. Every choice I make has a consequence, for everyone around me! My whole family's life lies in my hands, there's no more guidance... only me. I stood up again. I grabbed my sword from the concrete and sheathed it. I wiped my tears away and began to walk back to the lair.

I finally got back to the lair. My bare feet touching the cold concrete ground, and the same smell assaulted my nose. Body odor, pizza, and Leo's candles. I noticed the guys were in the living room, everyone but Leo that is. Crognard was on, and everyone was watching intently. Leo was probably in the dojo.

I walked over and opened the door. My prediction was correct. He sat their in the dark, candles being the only light around him. He had two inscences light. He had nothing on. No wraps, no bandana, nothing. He was in a deep meditative trance. I tiptoed over to where he was and made room. I sat down and began to meditate with him.

I closed my eyes and began to feel a wave of relaxation take my body, and a weight is taken off my shoulder. I felt as if I could breathe properly now. I felt the corners of my lips tug up a little bit.

"Feel better?"

A deep raspy voice came out. I opened my eyes. Leo was looking at me with those ocean eyes. He was smiling softly at me as he scooched towards me a little, just enough so he could hold my hand. I nodded a little bit and closed my eyes once again.

I think he did too because he stopped talking and moved his hand away. I noticed that when he meditated, he made hand gestures, and sometimes he'd even make humming sounds. Gentles and soothing. I wish he would make that gentle humming sound because that little banshee in my head started to whisper again.