Truth | e.d

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*Hey guys, just to let you know there is a serious topic in this chapter. I dont want it to be taken lightly because it is serious if anyone would like to talk I am always here to listen

I have been there before and I can relate to alot of you if you have these same issues

So just message me if you need to ever talk I'm here to listen

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(Peyton's P.O.V.)

My heart was beating like a drum that I could hear it while I laid next to graysons sleeping body

I avoided moving to make sure I wouldn't get close to him

The blood rushing through my body was urging my to get close to him but I tried to dismiss the feeling

The cold icy floor met with my body and I slowly made my way over to my desk

I slowly opened the bottom right drawer reaching for my journal, ever since I was a little kid I wrote in this thing trying to figure out my purpose for living

When I was 12 I was suicidal and I couldn't turn to anyone because no one knew what is as going through

I was getting made fun of at school for putting on weight and for how much acne I had and for not looking like all of the other girls

It got really bad but thankfully my aunt made me see a therapist who made me write every day how I felt in this journal and it worked

I began to feel better about myself and it helped me ignore all of the comments from the others

But after a while it stopped working so I tried to trash the journal but I realized that if I did so someone might find it and read it then make my life hell

So I kept it hidden until I needed it again

And right now I needed it more than ever, so i made my way quietly and slowly down to the kitchen to grab a snack before heading out to the patio in the back to write down everything

I don't know what to do...
Everyone is fake here the only ones I can trust are tyler and grayson
My heart can't take this anymore
Ethan lies and he doesn't know how to stop
It hurts.
I wanted my life with him
But he chose her
Her chose the girl who paid someone to rape me
I can't forgive him
But every inch of me misses his kiss
His warm body against my own
His eyes watching me making me feel comfortable and safe
But that's all gone
He has her...
And they have their baby...

I stopped

Continuing to write felt impossible to do

Just thinking about everything that happened made me want to end it but I knew it wasnt worth it

The cold air brushed against my skin as I shivered

I stared up at the sky watching the stars slowly move followed by the sound of the ocean hitting rocks

Everything felt fine right where is was but I was sad thinking about how it wouldn't last

Before I knew it I closed my eyes for what I thought was a few seconds but i ended up falling asleep

"Hey sleeping beauty" a raspy voice woke me up

I rubbed my eyes and it took them a few seconds to focus

But once they did I saw a shirtless grayson with a hoodie in his hand

"I thought you might need this" he handed me his hoodie

I didnt think I was going to fall asleep out here but I was wearing a pair of shorts and a tank top

I slowly took the hoodie from him and began to put it on

"You know I could have taken the couch, you didnt have to sleep outside" he mocked me

"Look I didnt think I was going to fall asleep out here, anyways I just needed to clear my head" i told him

He nodded his head understandingly and walked back inside

I followed behind him like a lost puppy into the kitchen

"I'll make us breakfast" he offered

"No I will, your my guest remember" I joked

He gave me a smile while throwing his hands up defensively

"Alroght boss lady" he said

"Oh and keep that hoodie, it looks nice on you" he ended

I turned to face the fridge and I couldn't help but smile

His hoodie was like a dress on me and I loved the smell of him, I dont know what it was about it but just the smell made me feel safe

"So pancakes?" I yelled to him

"Yes ma'am" I heard him get up from the couch and back into the kitchen

I tried to ignore the feeling of being watched but I couldn't help turn to see grayson watching me with a smile

"Can I help you" my voice sounded serious but my face told him I was joking

"Nope" he gave me a short answer

I smiled while i turned to finish making pancakes and bacon

(Grayson's P.O.V.)

As peyton cooked us breakfast I couldn't help but watch her

Every minute that u was spending with her I felt more and more attracted to her

She made me happy and I know she feels the same but I think she is to afraid to show it

"Hey I'm going to use the restroom I'll be back" my hand patted the island table as I made my way to the bathroom

I looked into the mirror and then down at my phone that had been in my pocket

I took it out and went to ethans contact as I seen he had texted me 12 times and called me 10 times

This felt wrong to betray him and fall for the girl he is in love with or.. at least claims he is in love with

But I cant stop feeling this way and I dont think I want it to stop