The Change {Louis Tomlinson~AU~PUNK~}

Chapter 24: I Miss You

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It Will Rain-by-Bruno Mars

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*LOUIS' POV*

It is now Thursday. Last week I broke up with Jesse. Tomorrow we graduate. I haven't been able to sleep since I saw her running out of school on her birthday.

I feel like complete shit! I've got bags forming under my eyes.

One week without her. One week of no sleep. One week of crying. One week of loneliness. One week of feeling like hell. I CANT FUCKING TAKE IT ANYMORE! I'm going in to denial!

It's miserable without her. I start to cry again at my thoughts. I'm in my bed.

*JESSE'S POV*

I cry and cry and cry!

"Jesse please unlock your door!" My dad pleas from the behind my door.

I don't talk. I haven't eaten for about 4 days now. I'm too depressed. I've lost my appetite along with Louis. I've managed to sneak a kitchen knife up here.

I've broken the weeks of not cutting. I draw a few more lines in my skin with the knife.

Blood instantly shows up at the shallow cut, making it even more visible.

A tear drops onto the knife. I gasp as I cry.

My friends Zella, Katey, Melony and Stella have tried calling. I'm in no mood to talk.

I haven't slept in days.

All I can do it cry.

*LOUIS' POV*

"Louis, Harry is here. He says it's important." My mum calls through the door.

I also haven't talked, AT ALL! She lets him in and he says, "Mate. I've got something to tell you. Before I tell you, you wouldn't listen to me or Jesse on 'that day'. And you haven't answered any texts or messages on Facebook or Twitter."

He takes in a deep breath, "I'm the one who kissed. I'm the one who RUINED my BEST FRIEND'S RELATIONSHIP! Not her. I'm the guilty one. And I'm so FUCKING SORRY!" He yells some of the words.

"J-Jesse, s-she hasn't been e-eating. S-She's scaring me mate. P-Please, go t-talk to her." He cries out.

"WHAT! WHY DIDNT YOU TELL ME?!?!" I yell. I'm yelling because I'm flabbergasted.

"Y-You didn't c-come to school. You didn't let me talk to you. S-She won't even look at me or talk to me." He cries out again.

"Okay, thanks Harry." I thank him as I tug on a jacket.

"Oh, and I don't a have a.....crush on Jesse anymore. I'm crushing on her friend Melody." He informs me.

I nod and give him a hug. I'm still mad at him of course. He shouldn't have ever done that. But...I guess I'll do the right thing and give him another chance. I leave before I change my mind.

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My grip is tight on the driving wheel as I anxiously drive to her house. I finally arrive in her drive way.

I knock hard on the front door.

Her father answers.

"What are you doing here?" He growls.

I push past him and run upstairs.

I try opening her door but it's locked. I then bang my fist against it a few times to bust it open.

She's on her bed. She's motionless. DID SHE COMMIT SUICIDE?!

I panic. Her cheeks are stained with years. "What have I done." I silently whisper to myself.

I see a kitchen knife in her hands with some blood on it. It makes me panic even more.

Tears begin to roll down my cheeks. "Jess wake up." My voice sounds broken.

She doesn't budge.

"JESSE WAKE THE FUCK UP!" I yell.

"Hmm?" I hear her mumble sleepily.

"Jess, please don't cut yourself." My voice speaks brokenly.

She jumps up. She looks at me with terrified eyes. "W-What do y-you w-want?" She stutters.

"Please don't be scared of me. I can't live without you. Harry told me everything. INCLUDING YOU NOT EATING FOR A WEEK!" I slightly raise my voice.

She begins to cry. "IVE MISSED YOU!" She cries.

She jumps into my arms, hugging me for dear life.

"Damn, I've missed you too, babe." I reply. Tears start falling out of my eyes. She has the power to make me cry, she's the only one to make me cry.

She's the only one that brings out the soft side of myself.

I hear her bedroom door silently close.

We sit here kissing, cuddling, mumbling sweet words to each other, and crying on the floor for what feels like hours.

I've missed her so much that I can't even explain it. I LOVE THIS GIRL WITH ALL OF MY HEART!

I start to feel this overwhelming feeling in the pit of my stomach of true happiness.

"Never ever cut yourself ever again! And same goes with not eating!" I say sternly while I pull back from our tight embrace.

She just laughs and pecks my lips. "I won't, as long as we are together, I can't take not being without you." She says.

"Come with me to the XFactor." I ask. She nods.

As she stands up from the ground I pull her violently back down, she lands on top of me, I make-out with her. The kiss is a little heated but filled with passion. I feel all these sparks fly in the kiss, the sparks I've missed.

Damn her lips. Her lips are one of the many things I've missed about her. She pulls back first.

"I've missed kissing you." She whispers. "You just read my mind." I tell her quietly.

"I love you." I tell her.

"I love you too." She repeats.

She kisses me again.

I've missed her lips, her hair, her eyes, her joyful smile, her walk, her talk, her beautiful voice.

IVE MISSED HER!

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