The Change {Louis Tomlinson~AU~PUNK~}

Chapter 49: I Just Want You

Chapter song-

How To Save a Life-by-The Fray

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*JESSE'S POV*

"Jesse, can I tell you something?" Chase asks me.

"Sure, what's up?" I ask as I turn to face him.

He takes a deep breath, "I know it's real obvious and I get annoying, but I've got to let you know. Jesse I really want you to be mine. I know you miss Louis, but I've got a thing for you." He says.

"I know." Is all I can muster out.

After a few seconds of silence, "To be honest I have......developed feelings for you too." I honestly tell him.

"But this all is so confusing to me. I've been confused during high school about Louis before, and it wasn't pretty. But now I'm confused about both you and Louis. I miss him so much but I've also got feelings for you." I continue. I haven't seen Louis in so long.

"Then why can't you be with me?" He quietly and shyly asks.

"I just need more time for this confusion to finish. I will always love Louis, but I've got feelings for you." I tell him.

He brings me into one of his comforting and warm hugs that I love. I wrap my arms around him, hugging him back.

"Just give me time." I say again.

"Okay." He replies, mumbling.

•••

*4 weeks later*

I bring in the few groceries I bought for myself and put them up.

I hear Chase walk in the kitchen.

"What are you doing?!" He angrily asks.

"Just putting up my groceries. What's wrong?" I ask and turn around to face him. His eyes are red, his cheeks are flushed and he's holding a large bottle nearly finished vodka.

He's been drinking.

I've never experienced him being drunk before, so I really hope he's a funny or lovey dovey drunk instead of an abusive drunk.

"THIS ISNT YOUR HOUSE TO PUT STUFF IN!" He yells.

He tenses up.

"Im sorry. Chase, you didn't care about it last week." I say as nicely as I can.

"DONT YOU GET A DAMN ATTITUDE WITH ME!" He yells as he raises his left hand. He corners me in between the wall and the fridge.

I flinch as his hand makes a connection with my cheek, back handing me.

My question has just been answered.

It stings. Tears immediately spill.

His fist connects to my jaw.

After he's finished with the next few slaps and punches he stomps away, out the front door and slams it shut.

I get my phone out of my pocket with my shaky hands and dial my Katey's number. I miss her. I see some messages in my phone from different people I haven't answered.

"Hello." The familiar voice speaks from the other side of the phone.

"K-Katey." Is all I can say.

"JESSE! What's wrong?! Why haven't I talked to you in forever?!" She panics.

"Where are you!?" She asks.

"I'm in L-london." I don't want to tell her where I am specifically.

"Meet me at 'BucklBerry Park!" She demands.

She hangs up. I won't deny meeting her, I've missed my friends.

I pull on a comfortable sweat shirt and let my long hair down. I cover both sides of my face with my hair and put the hood on. I put on my ray-bans even though it's night.

•••

I see Kate sitting on a bench under a street light that needs a new bulb.

I walk over to her.

She pulls me in for a hug.

"Are you okay? What happened?!" She asks.

"Why are you wearing sunglasses, it's night." She points it out.

"C-cause, I got swag." I say as a stutter leaves my lips.

She pulls the hood back and my glasses off and gasps.

"Seriously, what happened?!" She asks as she moves my hair out the way.

"I slumped on an ice cube." I lie.

"You're lying. You can't get a black eye and a swollen jaw from that!" She accuses me right.

"Alright! Someone punched and slapped me." I tell her the truth by mumbling.

"Who!" She angrily asks.

"I can't tell you." I say.

"You've gained some weight. Have you been depressed or stressed?" She panics.

I bust out crying.

"What's wrong?" She asks.

"I want pizza with peanut butter!" I cry.

She does a small giggle.

"Jesse, why are you talking about nasty food?" She asks.

My tears fall harder.

She hugs me. "Has these weird foods made you gain weight?" She asks. She means the best.

"N-nooo!"I cry.

"Then why-ooooooooh, are you?" She can't finish her sentence. I understand what she means.

I nod.

"Jesse!" She gasps.

"I didn't mean t-to. Katey, help me!" I cry.

She hugs me again.

She takes me to her house she bought in London.

"Who got you pregnant?" She asks.

I only stare at her.

"Were you raped or something?" She asks.

I shake my head.

"Is it someone who I know?" She asks.

I nod in response.

"Louis!" She gasps.

I nod with tears flying.

"That's why I-I didn't t-tell anyone that I was l-leaving. I'm afraid he w-would get mad at me." I stutter.

"Please don't tell him!" I cry.

"I won't" she promises.

•••

I fall asleep on her comfortable bed under the warm covers that protect me from the harsh winter air.

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Hey guys! :)

Sorry it took me long to publish this chapter but I had to think about it.

Love you lovelies! :)