Do I Love You?

Chapter 15 - Feelings

"Zack!" I shouted, pushing my way through the crowd to him. I then turned towards Ryan.

"Are you okay?" I searched his body with my eyes as a black hole of worry formed in my chest. Anger hit me as I turned to Zack.

"What the hell is wrong with you!?" I barked.

"What do you mean 'what's wrong with me? You might not know this, but I did warn him." Pointing his finger and moving towards Ryan, he continued, " and that dick didn't listen."

"Woah, woah, woah. Calm down will ya?" Thankfully, Alex held Zack by his shoulder trying to calm him down.

Where'd he come from?  

I then returned my attention back to Ryan," What happened between you two?"

He ignored my question as he examined my face, "Were you crying?"

Only then did I realize that I hadn't wiped away my tears and everyone was now staring our way making me feel self-conscious. I wiped my face and returned his stare," Don't ignore my question."

"Don't ignore mine."

"No, I wasn't crying. Now answer my question." I lied.

"Well, I'm not dumb Lala. It's pretty obvious you were," he shot back.

I looked away, feeling nervous and clueless about what to say next. Just then the thought came to mind to just ignore his statement, "Are you gonna answer my question or not? What happened between you two?"

 "I don't even know. He just came charging at me for no reason."

"Stop acting all innocent pretty boy. I already told you you'd regret it if you hurt her!" Zack said as he speedily went towards Ryan with his fist already clenched. But before he could reach him, Alex caught him by his arm and pulled him away.

I returned my attention back to Ryan with eyes wide open as I put the pieces together. Zack punched Ryan because he thought he did something to me? All this happened because of me.

"Ryan I'm so sorry," I apologized.

"What for?" he asked, a confused look making its way on his face.

"For the way, Zack just acted. He shouldn't have done that," I stated.

"You don't need to apologize for him, Lala. He did what he did himself." He said sternly. "It's not like you moved his hand."

"Yeah I know, but it is because of my pathetic tear-"

"I already knew you were crying y 'know," he admitted. "Look, I'm so sorry about leaving but crying doesn't solve anything. No matter what happens, I'm going to leave anyway."

I gaped at him, astonished by how negative he actually was. He wasn't usually like this. "Wow, Ryan. Just the perfect thing to say to someone who just learned that the freaking guy they like is about to leave. And I'm pretty sure that by the way you're acting, you're not coming back."

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School ended and all I could think about now was Ryan. On my way to the parking lot to await Alex's and Amy's arrival, I spotted Ryan leaning against his car. I continued walking but as I came closer, I realized someone else was there with him.

The person was tall and had dark hair, reminding me of Alex. Getting closer, I was convinced it was him.

But why'd they be talking? They don't know each other.

Although curious about what they were talking about, I continued walking. While walking past them, I heard a small portion of their conversation.

"Why'd you show up? There's a reason I went to her y' know. I wanted you guys to back off," Ryan said, a serious tone in his voice.

What does he mean by that?

I soon arrived at Alex's car where I waited. Why were they taking so long? I hated being alone. That was the only time I'd be left with my thoughts.

Suddenly, I saw someone walking towards me. I'd know that walk anywhere. It was the one person I didn't want to see. I became even sadder as he got closer.

"Lala. Can we talk?" He asked worriedly. I looked away knowing if I looked at him I'd burst out in tears. In the corner of my eyes, I could see a slight smile curving on his lips as he continued. But this time it was different. It wasn't one of his normal goofy smiles. This time, even though his smile was almost convincing, his eyes were full of sadness.

"You know, we didn't get to go on that date we talked about before. What do you say?" He asked. Before I could answer he interrupted me. "Wait, before you answer, I just want to say something, and I know you're not gonna like this but... I know you're afraid. You're afraid of getting hurt, and that's why you don't say what you're thinking. I know this might be pressuring but I really wish you'd talk to me. This is our last chance. Please. I just want to know how you feel."

"Why?.... Why should I tell you? As you said, you're going to leave anyway." With each word, my heart sunk and my voice became softer and crooked. I looked up at him and that's when everything came tumbling down. It felt like my heart was being ripped out of my chest as the multiple tears ran down my cheeks.

To my surprise, I am pulled into a hug, a warm yet soft hug. It was comforting, making me feel like I could cry to my heart's extent.

"I'm sorry I hurt you." He whispered in my ear, sending tingles down my spine.

At his words, I slowly pulled away and looked up at him. His eyes were full of sadness which broke my heart. It hurt to see him like this. Trying my best to make a smile I stated, "let's go."

He gave me a confused look. "On that missing date," I added.

I was tired of being sad now. I knew this would be the last time seeing him, but I wanted to make the best of it. What I wanted more than anything right now was to be happy. These past few weeks, a lot of things happened and I've been dwelling on them. Well, I don't want to be stuck in the past anymore. I want to make the best of what's happening now and not worry about what happened yesterday or what's going to happen tomorrow.

I want...to be happy.

A/N

I'm sorry this chapter is so short. Wow, two chapters in one day. 👏👏👏
Please forgive me for the mistakes and thank you for reading. Sorry for the late update. I've been stuck this whole time😅. Anyway, thanks again for reading. Until next time!🤗🤗