otherside ➳ post malone

12 - (a)

wherever you are // 5sos

"And I was feeling Whitney, me and my homies sip Houston. Cars and clothes, thought I was winning, you knew I was losing," I sang as I sat on the edge of the stage, strumming my guitar. I looked out at the crowd and couldn't help but be proud of myself. "You told me to wake up, oh, my clock always stays on snooze, I'm done."

I couldn't help but think about Olivia and how proud she'd be of me. I remember playing Feeling Whitney for her the first time and how much she loved it.

She took me out of the mindset I had while I wrote it. Even though she's the one that initiated this stupid ass break we were on, I took her for granted.

And I had no idea why I didn't just take her back as soon as she called. I'm fucking stupid. 

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postmalone what a night.  you fucking rocked it, OKC!  📷 by: @adamdegross
username1 I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH!!!!!!!
ol1v1a.mcne1l Proud of you.
username2 so wait??? is he w lily or olivia???
itzrandyyy we're all so proud of you even if you forgot about us
postmalone @itzrandyyy shut up, you know i love all of you
37 minutes ago

I sat in yet another hotel room, staring in the mirror that was hung over the desk I was sitting at. I pushed my hair back and put my head in my hands. I was stressed. And performing on stage every night didn't give me a high like I used to.

I kept thinking about Olivia's comment on my picture. It made me smile and I kept going back to look at it. Maybe I was obsessed. Or lonely. Or just in love.

I got up and walked to the bed, flopping down on it. I held my phone above my head, scrolling on it. I clicked on my DMs on Instagram and seen Lily had messaged me.

liliesforlily just wanted to say i'm sorry for everything that's being said about you following me
postmalone don't be sorry! i cleared everything up with my girlfriend so it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks.
liliesforlily oh i didn't know you had a girlfriend. so now i understand why i'm getting such mean comments.
postmalone well she's not really my girlfriend right now, it's complicated. but why didn't you say you were getting rude comments?
liliesforlily we can talk about it if you want. & it's not a big deal, i can handle it.
postmalone i wouldn't want to burden you with my issues. it's not a big deal. just let me know if there's anything i can do about the comments.
liliesforlily you aren't a burden but i won't push it. you can always text me if you do want to talk to someone about it. my number is 786-555-8939.
postmalone thanks lily.

I felt guilty for talking to her even though I wasn't flirting. Or at least I didn't feel like I was.

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ol1v1a.mcne1l Loving is easy, you had me fucked up.
itzrandyyy MY BITCH. U SO HOT.
username1 @postmalone this is about u
ol1v1a.mcne1l @itzrandyyy I love you omg!!
username2 i'm literally so confused on this whole situation with posty. WHAT IS GOING ON.
username3 lily is SOOOO much cuter than you lmaoooo
harker.pummel Queen.
username4 PLS DONT LET SOME NASTY HOE STEAL YOUR MAN!!!!!!!
59 minutes ago

I huffed to myself at the comments on Olivia's picture thinking Lily was 'stealing' me from her. It was quite annoying. Olivia knew what was going on and so did Lily. None of us thought anything of it.

There was a knock on my hotel room door. I sighed and got up, unlocking it. My friend Kyle appeared along with other members of our crew.

"Hey dude, I was just wondering if you wanted to go out tonight," Kyle offered. "We've noticed you haven't been yourself lately and maybe if we had a couple of beers and played some pool, you'd feel better."

"I'm good, man, thanks though," I said to him, closing the door. They began to walk away and I stopped them. Maybe it wouldn't hurt anything to go. So I stopped them. "Actually, yeah. I'll go. Just let me change."

"Awesome, man," Kyle smiled, stepping into the room along with Lucas and Peter. I grabbed some clothes out of my suitcase and walked into the bathroom, soon walking back out.

"Ready?" I asked them. They nodded and we walked out of the room. I followed them down the hallway to the elevators.

Soon we made our way to the pool hall they had planned on taking me to. It was slightly packed, obviously a popular place to be on Thursday nights.

When we walked in, it was filled with middle aged men, presumably there to get away from their wives. That's what they looked like they were doing anyways. There were few women besides the bartenders and that was alright by me.

I walked up to the bar and ordered a Bud Light while the rest of my guys ordered something a little classier. Except Peter, he went for a Bud Light too.

I took a cigarette out of the pack that was in my back pocket along with my lighter, lighting it. I put the lighter back in the pack and then placed it in my pocket again. Olivia didn't like when I smoked, but it was something I couldn't quit.

After a lot of beers and a few rounds of pool, I that I had won by the way, I was feeling good. I was on my sixth or seventh cigarette along with my eighth beer and I knew everyone was judging me. I didn't care though, I was having fun.

I got out my phone and scrolled until I seen Lily's name. I was going to call Olivia but I knew she didn't want to talk to me.

The phone rang and rang until there was a voicemail. I didn't listen to what it said because my head was spinning.

"Heyyyy, Lily," I slurred. "I was just-uh, calling you to like talk to you or whatever. I'm really drunk and sad dude. So like yeah, call me back. Bye."

I hung up the phone and looked at Kyle who was laughing at me.

"Who is Lily?" Kyle asked. I just shrugged.

"Nobody," I told him before taking a sip of my beer and grabbing the pool stick. "Let's fucking go!"

a/n: i'm SO glad austin is okay from the plane thing today!! i was so worried.

also, get ready for some drama! i know y'all are wanting it. i'm trying to update as much as i can. :)