otherside ➳ post malone

19 - (o)

pictures of you // the cure 

I laid in my room, staring at the ceiling as I held a throw pillow over my chest. I felt numb but it was like I didn't care anymore. Soon, there was a knock at my door, interrupting my mthoughts. I looked over to see Parker peeking into my room.

"Can I come in?" Parker gave me a small smile and I nodded.

"Of course," I told him and he came and laid on the bed beside me, also staring at the ceiling. "Where's Izzy?"

"At work," he said, getting comfortable. "What's up? Why haven't you been talking to me lately?"

"I don't know, Park," I sighed. "I don't really feel like talking to anyone."

"Olivia, do you remember when you first got here and you started talking to Austin?" He asked me. I nodded. "I sat on the bench in front of your dorms with you and listened. You told me everything without knowing who I was. So why can't you tell me when you do know me?"

"I've already lost you once because of my feelings for Austin," I said, not looking away from the ceiling. "It's not happening again."

"That's when I had this stupid crush on you and I didn't care that I hurt your feelings," He chuckled. "You're my best friend. I don't want you being sad like you are."

"I love you, P," I finally looked at him.

"I love you, O," he nudged me. "So tell me, what's wrong?"

"I miss him," I said bluntly. "So damn much."

"I know that," he said, staring into the air. "Everyone knows that."

"Well, that's it," I shrugged.

"No it isn't," He shook his head. "Come on. I can't help you if you don't talk to me."

"Fucking Lily," I sat up abruptly, looking down at him. He soon sat up too. "Who the hell is she? Why does she get to be with the one person I want?"

"He doesn't care about her," Parker closed his eyes and shook his head.

"Everyone keeps telling me that but he moved this girl to LA with him!" I was frustrated now. This is why I was better sad. "Like what the fuck? We were together for over a year and never even talked about moving in together!"

"That's because you two were secure in your relationship," he explained to me. "You didn't need to move forward because you were happy with where you were."

"I'm the reason this whole thing got fucked up, Parker, and I know that," I shook my head. "But shit, I asked for a break. Not for him to have a new girlfriend right away. And I know for sure he hates me because he knows about Mr. Anderson."

"This is a lot, I agree with that," He nodded. "But there isn't much you two can't overcome. I have never seen someone more in love than Austin with you."

"It doesn't really feel that way right now," I said. And before Parker could say anything else, there was another knock on my door. "Come in!"

Taylor stood there with a sympathetic smile on his face. I just stared at him in a way that questioned what he wanted.

"Can we talk?" He asked. I sighed and then nodded.

"I'll see you later, Parker. Thanks for listening to me," I hugged him and he kissed my forehead before getting up and walking out of the room. Taylor took his spot on the bed as he looked at me.

"Olivia, I am so sorry for hurting your feelings," Taylor shook his head. "I should have never told him. You have been nothing but amazing to me."

"It is pretty shitty," I scoffed, biting my fingernails. "But I can't be mad at you. All you done was tell the truth. I'm a whore."

"You're not a whore. You're hurt. You're angry," Taylor told me. "And that's just how you chose to cope. It happens, trust me."

"How do you and Randy have such a perfect relationship?" I sighed, grabbing a pillow and putting it in my lap.

"Everything is not always peachy keen," he said. "We fight a lot. But at the end of the day, I'm in love with that woman. And no argument can ever change that. She's my entire world."

"If she heard the way you talk about her, she'd fall even more in love with you and I don't think that's possible," I chuckled.

"Austin talked that way about you," He smiled at me. "Until I fucked up and told him about you and... yeah."

"It's fine," I shook my head. "I don't deserve for him to feel that way about me anymore."

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taylor_barns Thinkin bout how much she annoys me.
itzrandyyy ASSHOLE. i love you though.
taylor_barns @itzrandyyy Oh my god! Can't believe you commented! I'm such a huge fan!
ol1v1a.mcne1l MY FAVES.
harker.pummel No photo cred to my WONDERFUL girlfriend?!?!
taylor_barns @harker.pummel I'm pretty sure Izzy wants to beat your ass like 24/7
59 minutes ago

"Hey dad," I said on the phone. I hadn't talked to my dad in a long time. It was much needed.

"Hey, Livi!" He said enthusiastically. "What's going on?"

"Just miss you," I said, smiling to myself. "And I have some things I want to talk to you about."

"I'm at work until five but if you want to meet for dinner at about 5:30 then that is perfect," he told me and I smiled again because I love him. 

"That's great," I agreed.

"Your mom will be excited," he said and I sighed. "What is it?"

"I was hoping it could just be me and you," I admitted.

"Okay, yeah. But you have to come home this weekend to see her," He told me.

"Deal," I nodded even though he can't see me.

"What do you want to eat?" He asked me. I thought for a second and then answered.

"Kinda want sushi," I said.

"Ooh, sounds good!" He agreed. "Okay, honey. I'll see you soon."

"Okay, dad," I said. "Love you, bye."

"Love you, too, sweetie," he said. "Bye."

a/n: i'm watching the best of me right now (the girl who plays olivia is one of the main characters) and it seems so weird seeing her actually talking & acting but it's awesome.