Back In Black- Book 2

Chapter 49

I finished eating and ushered Nick out the door. My body still screamed in agony but i wanted to drink and try to forget everything for one night. Yes, i should be resting and planning a way to hide on the other side of the world but this time ill face my problems head on. Before i hid from them like a defenseless child that i was, but not anymore. I'd rather die trying than live my life constantly looking over my shoulder in paranoia. You can knock me down but I'll get back up swinging every time.

The whole ride Nick was on the phone with whom I'd assume was Giovanni. Earlier when he helped me get in to the shower i was embarrassed beyond words. Not because he seen me basically naked, but because i had to have help. I'll probably never say it to him, but I'm glad he was there when i needed it. He doesn't owe me anything but i now owe him one. To him I'm just another job he was assigned but I didn't care. Nick is at least someone i can talk to about what is going on.

Part of me wishes it was Cole but he doesn't deserve to be part of my life after abandoning me so easily. When i set out to make him regret ever meeting me, it was wrong. Sure he deserved pay back but not what i had planned. Im not saying I'm any better than him for stooping to such a low level but at least i never followed through. Somewhere along the lines i fell for him and be broke my heart. Ive never had anyone cause my heart more pain than he has in my entire life.

Tonight i plan to drink till i black out and forget everything bad that has happened in my life. Just one night is all i need. One night to throw a pity party before i pick myself back up and make a plan.

Even if i was given the chance to start over and have a better life, i wouldn't take it. This life has thrown me some harsh blows but its made me the strong woman i am today. I wouldn't wish this life on anyone else, that would be incredibly wrong of me.

When we arrived Nick tried to help me out of the car but I slapped his hands away. Ive always taken care of my self and i cant suck up my pride and let him help me more than need be. Maybe i should be more grateful for his kindness but after todays events, i have no kindness to offer in return.

Showing the bouncer my fake ID he let me through. I was dressed to kill in my sexy black outfit. My hair was straight and i had a dark smokey eye and dark blood red lipstick on. Tonight is my night and no one is going to wreck it.

The rock band Halestorm was playing. They are by far my favorite female rock band.

"Got a demon in my soul and a voice in my head
Saying, "Go, go, go, I can sleep when I'm dead."
There's a sonic revelation bringing me to my knees
And there's a man down below that needs my sympathy."

I smirked and ordered a drink from the crowded bar. After taking a couple shots with Nick, i pulled him to the dance floor. He was enjoying this side of me, i could tell by the look on his face.

"Oh if there's a church it's rock and roll
If there's a Devil I sold my soul
And it's alright whatever we do tonight
'Cause if there's a God
Dammit she won't mind"

I sang along as the song ended and grabbed a drink from a waiter walking by with a tray of shots.

"Id tell you to slow down because of your physical state but i know theres no stopping you. Plus you're sexier than hell like this." Nick shouted in my ear. In response i smirked and kept dancing. Words aren't needed tonight.

COLE'S POV
After a 30 minute wait i walked into the club. The band playing was one of Kenzie's favorites. It made my heart ache but i pushed it away and headed to the bar. Tonights goal, drink away my heart ache.

I finished my first drink and turned my attention to the dance floor. The only thing to help me move on is another girl. Glancing at the girls, one caught my eye. I couldn't see her face, but her dancing caught my attention. Her hips moved smoothly with the beat. Another guy had his hands on her hips but it wouldn't be long before that was me. Smirking i threw back my drink and headed to the dance floor.