Book of Unwanted Feelings

Feeling #8

How do you tell someone that you love that their love makes you can't breath? How do you tell someone that even though their intention is nice and they want the best for you, but you need to distant yourself from them? How do you tell someone that it's not that you want to be ungrateful, is just you need to grow out of yourself too? Maybe you are ungrateful. How do you tell yourself not to feel guilty about it. How do you tell someone that you're not sure, and all you wanted to be sure and secure and comfortable with yourself. In yourself. You want to say sorry, you want to mutter an apology for every steps you take. Sorry, I don't mean to blame you. I should not blame you nor use you as a scapegoat for my own inability to cope with things that should have been within my responsibility. I was the one who choose it to be that way, I was the one who act. I choose to let things happened to myself. I should have known better. I should have done something.

Sorry. Sorry. I'm sorry.

I'm just tired of being anxious about myself. It's been years.

Sorry. I'm really sorry.