Book of Unwanted Feelings

Feeling #10

The truth is, I just wish I could get lost for once without worrying that I'm actually lost.

Do not pack my bags, do not fill my meal box. Do not equipped me with clothes and blankets and tell me where to go. It's not that I don't appreciate your thoughts, it's not that I don't like being taken care of. Is just, I wish you to know, that this journey is personal. And I can't bring your hopes and dreams with me. I can't always sort out your worries, I can't dampened my soul to keep you away from the rain. I can't set myself on fire just to keep you warm. I can't always be there for you. I'll keep you in my thoughts, I wish you the best. I always remember, I never really left. I will pop up from time to time. Is just, please let met breath with whatever I am is. Please let me pull myself away because I need that. I need it. I need to be alone.

I can't always be there for you, I can't always be there for anyone. I'm sorry.

I don't ask you to be there. When I fall. I do not ask you to pull me from this hell-hole. I know it's not even a hell-hole.

Please, just let me take care of myself first.

I'm sorry.