When I was younger, everyone always told me laughter was the best medicine. Since then, whenever someone was down, I'd try to make them laugh. I'd make their favourite jokes, say ridiculous things and so on. But sometimes laughter isn't correct. Sometimes it's the worst thing to do. I walked in on my boyfriend cheating on me; at first I was in shock, but as per usual, I made a joke and laughed. I felt like crying but what only came out was laughter. I walked out laughing and went to the park, still laughing at 11:00 pm. People probably thought I was insane but laughing was the only thing I could do. And when I stopped laughing, it finally sunk in, I knew this was happening, the messages on his phone, the tardiness and the general disinterest when we were together. I'd always just laugh it off and deny any negative thoughts. But if this terrible experience has taught me anything, it's that while positivity plays an important role in our lives, negativity exists for a reason. I should've been more deceptive and thought about the underlying issues between us. But I never did, I would keep laughing through my issues and now, I've completely lost him. After my realization, I walk back into his apartment, silently take all of my stuff, and leave. All the while he watched me, completely cold and unfeeling towards what was happening. Before I left, I look at him one last time, smiled a pained smile, and walked away. And for the first time in a very long time, I felt sadness.
