I arrived home after a long day; I collapsed face first into my pillow in my cozy little apartment when I hear a knocking on the other side of the wall. "Hey you ok?" I hear my neighbor say. "Long day" I say, muffled by the sound of my face in my pillow. "Yeah I figured" I hear him chuckle. "If you don't mind if I ask... what made it a long day?" I wondered if I should tell him or not for a couple seconds and I responded, "nothing". "Very specific", he laughed, not knowing how embarrassed I was. "Mind if I come over?" He asks me. "Sure I guess" I say, face still in pillow. I hear his foot steps as he walks out of his room and over to mine. The door shuts out the cold behind him and he makes his way over to my bed. He sits at the end of my bed and lies down beside me. "So, something must really be wrong if you walked in here without even locking your door behind you". "You don't have to tell me but don't come crying to me if all your stuff gets stolen". I finally roll over and accidentally kick him in his gut. "Ouch" He says. "Sorry!" I giggled. I kicked him again "accidentally". "That's really mean you know" he sighed. "So you gonna tell me what's wrong or do you just want me here with you, I am your best friend after all". I get mad at him saying that. He's always doing these things for me, things a boyfriend should do and yet, he only calls me a friend. It's like there's something wrong with me. Maybe I'm not good enough. I push him off the bed, I caught him off guard and he hits the ground with a satisfying thud. "What did you do that for?!" I stare at him on the floor and I sigh. "I'm just mad" I say. "Nothing is going right and I can do nothing about it". "Just let me wallow in my own sorrow". "Ok" he sighs. "I'll leave you alone for now, but just remember I'm just next door". "Try not to cry to loud" he jokes. The door shuts behind him and I'm alone once again. Deep down, I know I wanted him to stay, I wanted to tell him what's happening. But I didn't. And I won't. These thin walls may not hide words, but within my small room, it hides myself.
