Play the song when you see ~~~~<——-this.
Addy's PoV
I return to our room to find Kayden asleep. On my bed. She Was clutching something close to her heart and she appeared to be...peaceful. Whether it was the rain or something else, she looked calm. Kayden stirs a bit and shivers, hair falling into her face. Crowley is stretched out beside her, purring loudly. I smiled and yawned as I decided that it was time to tell joey my true identity. I sighed as I pulled my hair up and grabbed my choker. I noticed two bracelets on the dresser. They were gold. I saw a note beside them
Dear Addy~
You really thought that I forgot about you? I would never forget my favorite project. I would love for you to come back home. I could teach you more ways to destroy this pointless world.
~Love BSY
My body trembled as I felt tears threatening to come out. The flower on my eye grew thorns as I stood in place with the letter in my hand. Snap out of it. I have to do what I said I would do. I take one last look at Kayden. She turned over, her back facing me. I could barely see that she's shivering. She reaches out to the empty air beside her, only to pull her arms closer to her chest again. She quietly chokes back a sob. I put a blanket over her before walking outside. I put my hair back down and I sighed as my hair blew in my face. I opened my mouth and...all my feelings spilled out. Why couldn't they stay deep down?
{Starts at 2:33}
"Overwhelmed, overworked, overpaid
I'm on top of the world, sittin' pretty on a stack
But the static still cracks in my veins
At the bottom of the universe, feelin' all the weight
People die for this
People lie for this
People suck and fuck some guy for this
Pay the toll for this
Sell their soul for this
Play my part, but what's my roll in this
I'm not built for this
All the guilt of this
And I don't think I can deal with this
I'm too old for this
Gonna fold from this
People starving and I get gold for this?
You all chalk me up as some whiny fuck who's stressed by success like, "my life sucks"
I get it, I know
It's such a conundrum
I get what I want, but I can't have much fun with it
It's not the fame or the money I'm yearnin'
I don't give a fuck about what I've been earnin'
But each day I wake up more blessed that I'm learnin'
Of all these people, I'm least to deserve it
I don't deserve it
I try to be perfect
I'll never be perfect
I'm not worth it
I keep lookin' for answers, I swear that I'm searchin'
But I keep comin' short, and I give up quick
'Cause if I found it, I think I'd be scared of it
You don't see the scene behind the screen
And I urge you all to be aware of it
It's an interesting dichotomy of monetized sincerity
Stir up my insecurity with constant uncertainty
Generation of anxiety
The "look at me" society
Dubiety of piety
The gods all suffer silently
I'm sorry for my obsession with attention
I have ungodly fear of rejection
My apprehension and objection is the viral infection
Of dollars and followers in place of affection
What i need is a human connection
Not blue light and a foggy reflection of my misconception of my own perception
A result of way too much introspection
They find my disinterest interesting
My depression, a funny thing
My decline is relatable
People love that i hate myself
Yeah, they love that i hate myself
People love that i hate myself
People love that i hate myself
People love that i hate myself
I climbed out of my head
And watched myself implode
A thought without a body
Ought to be a shot to take a load
Off my brain is poisoned
And i'm searching for the antidote
But every time i find it
My defenses scream "oh, no you don't!"
Woah
But it's fine
No, really i'm fine
It's just a matter of time
You'll lose your mind
And not be fine from time to time
I'm not crazy
But i feel crazy all a sudden
In a city never seein'
Snow or rain or leaves in autumn
Lose yourself in seasons
Not remembering that you forgot 'em
Knocking on my door
I can't confront 'em so i lock them out
But i don't mind
No, i really don't mind
Cause believe it or not
It feels good to be forgot
From time to time
So forget me
And please, God, forgive me
If you feel a touched underwhelmed
By all my overwhelming negativity
Who am i and when?
When's my work day end
And where does me begin?
Are these my colleagues or my friends?
On a scale of ten to one
Do you hate who i've become?
'cause i hate who i've become
I'm sorry for who i've become"
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