When Insanity Strikes

Chapter 6

Addys pov

I walked backstage to help clean up. "Hey, Addy..." I looked up to see Justin. "Yo. So you were the one who was controlling the music?" He nodded and smiled slightly at me. "The music was great. Do you have any recommendation for me?" I could see the happiness in his eyes. "I have a lot of songs we could listen to together!" He seemed excited. Weirdly I thought this was adorable. "Okay lead the way." He leads me to the music room which was beside the kitchen. "Okay, what bands do you know and which bands do you want to learn about?" "Umm I know MCR, Set It off and Panic! at the Disco.'' He looked disappointed for a moment. "I can work with that." So my whole entire evening was filled with happiness and music.

3 weeks later

Addys pov

We walked to the lunch room and went to our table. I was beside Kayden and I was talking to a friend of Justin. His name was Levi. He's still figuring out his insanity name. You know what sucks. The fact that I may have a crush on Justin. No, I do have a crush on him. Fuck. I decided that it was best to crush my feelings now. "Hey, Justin?" He was eating a piece of chicken and he looked down at me "I like you and I would like to date you" There was a moment of silence and then he put his thumb up. I'm going to assume that he also likes me. Well then.

Kayden's pov

I lay in the field, belting out everything to Alex. My face burns and I keep coughing. Everything is sore and achy. I put my hands over my face. Why was he there? Of all people in that stupid theater. I shudder as a breeze whistles past my ear. Addy disappeared. I've stopped worrying at this point. I can't.

"It feels like those feelings have been cut out of me and tossed away. The only thing really left is pure fear. I can't just have a small tug of worry..it's only fear to drag me down now. It's agitating." Alex sat beside me, listening patiently, rarely speaking.

Thorns and spikes sprout from my skin. It's a comforting sensation now. I've felt it for eight months so I guess I got used to the small pricks of pain. My back is soaked with dew on the grass. It feels good on my burn scars and...it.

"I understand," Alex says calmly, offering a warm smile. I return it with a weak twitch of the corner of my mouth. I sit up and let my hair down. Useless.

I sigh. "I try. But it all feels like I'm messing up at every turn." I put a hand over my left shoulder blade. My eyes flicker away. "It feels pointless..you know?" I look at the trees in the distance, watching birds fly between them. Hair falls into my face, obstructing my vision.

Alex speaks but I can't hear what they say. A hand touches my shoulder and I wince. "Sorry."

"Oh it's fine..I'm just frustrated..." I rest my head in my hands. "I try so hard to do something for addy but it seems like she's..somewhere else..." I swallow the lump in my throat, choking on tears. "It's like waving through a window that's covered up with curtains." My voice breaks and my throat stings. I look at my hands. They're shaking uncontrollably. I lower my head, hair covering my face completely. My hand strays to the necklace around my neck. It's made of washers and nuts I found over the years. A tear slips down my cheek. I continue my rant. Maybe it'll help.

3 more weeks later

Addy's pov

I sat next to him with my head on his shoulder. Apparently, I've met him before. We went to school together. I guess it was because we didn't talk that much. He was playing Vr chat with one of his friends. I really didn't mind. Honestly spending time with him made me oddly happy. I've been stressed out so much and I enjoy his company. I know I have Kayden and Alex and Ve but weirdly I've felt so...Alone. I don't know what it is.