I Can't Fight This Feeling - Jeffrey Dean Morgan Fanfic 18+

Chapter 8 - Misunderstood

Chapter 8 - Misunderstood.

Following Day;

Emily Sheridan...

Why would you offer someone to meet up and then cancel?

Is he just playing me?

Making a fool of me?

I never would have thought that he could be that cruel; but it has all started to look and feel like he is just that cruel. I feel so utterly disappointed in him. I had, had him on this pedestal for so long that; I am devastated to come to the conclusion that he isn't at all who I had thought and fooled myself into believing, he was. I am devastated that he has gone and done the one thing, that I had convinced myself that he wouldn't....and that is.... hurt me.

In a way; I guess that it's a good lesson to learn; never put your complete trust in someone other than yourself.

Was I a fool for having him so high above everyone else? Yes, I now believe that I was. However, that is stopping right here and right now. I just hope that my resolve remains intact once he is in front of me again.

What is wrong with me?

My stomach hurts – there is nothing that can stop it – I have tried everything to ease it.

I just wish that he hadn't cancelled on me; I am left having so many thoughts and I need to know what it had been that had happened between us. I am the type of woman who needs to resolve things as quickly as possible.

Well; I realise that I am cutting my nose off just to spite my face; but he will now have to wait until I am ready to talk. Plus, the way I am feeling right now; maybe this time next year I will be ready.

Yesterday, had been a great day, despite Jeffrey's inability to talk to me about the things that had happened between us. Paige and Ryan had stayed and helped me until every last item had been relocated and then we ordered Chinese food and got caught up on all the things that had been happening to them. It had felt great to be in my best friend's company again. I had missed them both terribly; it was good to get all up to date on what had been going on with them.

Hearing about Paige's lost love – Ryan Reynolds, turning up on her doorstep, while my dad had been ill, really got my back up. The fact that he had gotten in touch at all; made my blood boil. After all that he had done to Paige – I just couldn't believe the size of his balls. I just have to hope that he doesn't come near my friend while I am around.

Putting Paige back together after he acted like an asshat and just, what we call today, ghosted her, had been one of the hardest things that I had ever done. My friends had gone threw break-ups before that, but Paige's break-up with Ryan had been worse than anything I had seen before. I hadn't even known what to do, or how to help her. In the end, I had done everything by my gut instinct.

It had been enough to make my approach to men only ever short and sweet. The minute that I felt myself begin to develop feelings – I would bail quicker than a whore in church. I don't ever want to go through what Paige went through when Ryan bailed.

I can't imagine loving someone 'that' much. Not even Jeffrey.

I just find it hard to believe the size of balls that Ryan must have. There is one thing that I do hope that he knows – and that is – to stay the fuck away from me, otherwise, I wouldn't be held responsible for my actions. Growing up with my dad and Jeffrey – it was drummed into our heads from an early age; that friends stick together and always stick up for one another, and step up if they are unable to stand up for themselves.