I Can't Fight This Feeling - Jeffrey Dean Morgan Fanfic 18+

Chapter 13 - Curfew

Chapter 13 – Curfew.

The Following Day;

Paige Morgan...

I am glad that I had decided to stay with Charlie – this storm was lingering and the last piece of news we received was that it was going to last up to 3 days, when everyone was told to remain in-doors, and not to go outside – due to flying debris, winds that could tip cars, rain that they were worried would end up causing flooding in certain areas. From what we had managed to get – there had been a land slide not far from my dad's house.

It was nice to just be shut away from the world; Charlie and I had, had a good night.

After Ryan had left the other day; when I had literally ripped into him, I had called Charlie – knowing in that moment, that he was the man that I was in love with. I needed to tell him; I rarely used the 'L' word – but it had been important to me that he knew that right in that moment. What had surprised me was the fact that – while yes, I was attracted to Ryan, but I had no desire what-so-ever for him – when I hadn't even noticed; I had moved on, I had fallen out of love with Ryan and fallen in love with Charlie, I didn't even feel the need to remain friends with my ex. All I had wanted was for him to leave and to never come back.

Ryan, my sister, our dad and Emily, had all been so proud of me, and voiced how happy they were that I had made the right decision. I couldn't argue – because I feel the exact same way – my future, my heart and my love were all in Charlie – he was everything to me, somehow, I had given all of my heart to him, without even knowing that I had done so.

I just hope that he doesn't hurt me, the way Ryan had; he had been my everything for a long time. Out of nowhere, he had walked away from me, when he had said that he would never find anyone else that he loved as much as he loved me. The thing is – he had walked away from me, he had ghosted me and he thought that coming back with a lame apology and a bat of those eyes, and a flash of the smile, that I would drop everything to go back to him. Well he had been shocked when none of his charms had worked on me – the thing is; they only reminded me of how much he had, had me wrapped around his little finger; and that was not who I am anymore. I am stronger from what he had done to me back in the day; I am more sure of myself, I have more faith that I do not need a man to complete me.

Looking at him the other day – while yes, I am attracted to him, he is attractive but in the long run, that is all that he has going on. Becoming famous; hadn't changed him, I could now see that he was always this way – and I had been glossy eyed over him, I pushed aside the bad things – in favour of his looks and having sex. It was a hard lesson to learn, and it had taken a good few years to show me the point, but I am glad that I had learnt it.

"What's on your mind darlin'?" Charlie asked me; lying in bed with him – this is where I always wanted to be; by his side no matter what was going on.

"I am thinking about life, about the mistakes I made, about the lessons I have learned," there had never been a moment, where Charlie had tried to stifle me in anyway – he encouraged me to be open and honest with him and in turn he was the exact same way.

"He has really gotten to you, hasn't he?"

"I wouldn't say gotten to me – but, he has made me think about life and all that I have faced and all that I am going to face in the future," I admitted, "in a way I wish that I had gotten this closure back in the day, but I have it now, so it's better late than never; I guess!"

When I met Charlie – I was still bitter about men in general, most men would only have one date and walk away because I was mean, and most people think that I didn't know what my nickname had become – the ice queen, and I make no apologies for being that way. It hadn't been bad – it had helped me weed out the men that weren't in it for the long haul. I didn't want to just give any man, who showed me a bit of attention, my heart. So, I guess I had learnt something as soon as Ryan walked away from me.