Jerusalem

Chapter 8 (My deadly secret)

      It was summer and summer in Egypt was like hell on earth. It reminded youssef of that day, the day she died. In high school , things got really complicated between youssef and Mr. Mohmed. Youssef left the house as he couldn't take it anymore. He couldn't live with a guy that only taught him how to break a heart. He needed to go . He needed a way out but the problem was Omar . Omar was his family . The only thing he's got left. He wanted to take him and go but that wasn't possible. He simply couldn't afford it and he couldn't risk omar's education and his whole future . So he left. Walking away from Omar was the hardest thing he ever had to do. Youssef went away for three months . He went to El Faium and stayed with his aunt there. He wanted to stay there and never go back but he couldn't. Omar was there and he had to go back for his brother. He had to save him from their pathetic dad. When he went back , Omar was no longer his innocent little brother. He changed to become a little virgin of his dad. Sure Omar was mad at his brother for leaving him but what he did was too much.  

"Oh , you came back."Mr. Mohmed said as he was coughing on the stairs. 

"Oh , you're still alive."said youssef passing by him. He climbed the stairs searching for Omar. He went to his room but he didn't find him there. Youssef didn't take long to get what happened when he was gone. He was no longer a part of this family . It was the second year in high school. And naturally the two brothers attended the same school. Omar was the most popular guy in the school . He had the worst friends and he became just like them. So when he saw his brother again. He only wanted one thing Revenge and he was going to have it no matter what. Months passed in the school, Omar and his so-called friends were doing everything to destroy youssef's life. The two of them were fighting on a daily basis and they end up in the principal office everyday. They were bullies. They destroyed his locker, stole his wallet and did everything they can to prevent him from entering the American football team. But he got in eventually as he was really good at the game. That of course made Omar jealous as he was the captain of the team . Youssef was trying his best to get over his brother hatred. As much as it hurt him , he wasn't the guy that will say enough, just stop. He wasn't that guy. So youssef avoided him . He tried to ignore what Omar was doing . He tried to ignore that Omar choosed everyone over him . That he choosed their father over him. Through all of this youssef had one friend that kept him together. Her name was Maggie. She was a girl of meddium height, long red hair and brown eyes. She was an angel. She was the smartest girl in her class. She never had a boyfriend . She was a good girl. She and youssef had the same classes and they became friends really fast. They were so close . They spent all their time together. They were studying , playing and going everywhere together. They thought in the same way. They had the same taste in food.They were only 18 years old but they had thoughts of a 30 year old person. They were born to be friends.  

Omar noticed his brother growing friendship with that girl who was beautiful. And he started to put a plan to separate them . He had one goal cause youssef pain as youssef caused him. But Omar went so far. He got into Maggie's life. Going wherever she goes. He was great at pretending that he loved her. He played the role perfectly. He felt guilty sometimes but he was corrupted inside and he thought that therd is no way back to the right path. So he moved on in the wrong one. Maggie loved Omar naturally as he was the popular guy that everyone loved him and wanted to be friends with him, he was the captain of the American football team and he was really smart. But that wasn't what Maggie loved about him, she loved the hidden part of him, the part that appeares when he smiles a real smile. The part that appears when he is fighting with youssef that shows his love and hate at the same time. She loved him in a way that no one else can . She loved him more than herself and she wasn't going to live without him. Omar knew that he can't have her unless he married her so he did. Youssef tried to talk her out of it. He tried to stop her. He knew Omar didn't love her. Omar wasn't himself anymore. He wasn't capable of love at that time. He was only full of hate and anger. But Maggie was madly in love now. She wasn't going to stop. They got married . Mr. Mohmed refused that marriage and he didn't let them stay in the house. So they rented a small place . The third year of high school and the last one was insane . Youssef was only sleeping in his house . The rest of his time , he spent in the school with his friends, some guys that wasn't so popular but were real friends, friends you can count on , he met Mai (short blond hair, blue eyes and a very emotional personality). Mai had a foreign side in her family that was the reason for her remarkable beauty. Youssef liked her and he knewthat she was in love with him. He didn't want to lie to her and act like he loved her and the whole we will be together forever. So he decided to be honest and told her the truth. She became his girlfriend even though she knew that it will end. As for Omar and Maggie , they had a really hard time living together. Youssef tried to help Maggie and give her money. But that wasn't the problem . The real problem was that this marriage was based on a one sided love(Maggie's love). That year Omar tried to love her but he only liked her. After all you can't control how you feel. He was feeling guilty everyday because his revenge was over now and all that was left was the guilt and the pain. 

By the end of their high school, Omar thought and thought about what he should do . He decided that divorce is the best thing they can do . That way they both can go live their life and find love, atwo sided love. Only to Maggie that was the end because she already found love. That year omar and youssef never spoke to each other . They didn't fight. They just avoided each other and kept their distance . On their graduation day, they all got dressed and went to the school. Omar had already talked to Maggie about the divorce saying that they were young and it was foolish to marry in a very early age. She didn't say no. In fact she didn't say a word. Omar went to a marriage clerk and finished the papers. On that graduation day , Maggie got her divorce paper. She didn't go to the graduation. She stayed home.  

Omar and youssef were searching for her but they didn't find her. "Why didn't you two come together?"asked youssef trying not to look him in the eye. 

"Because we are not together."answered Omar feeling heavy , he wanted to tell youssef but that wasn't what he wanted to tell him exactly. He wanted to tell him:please forgive me , please lets just turn it back to that days you were my brother, to the times when we shared everything , I miss you brother, I miss my family, I am tired of being alone. 

"What do you mean? Where is she omar? "Asked youssef . He was beginning to worry. 

"I think she is home. I'm not sure."said Omar. 

"What do you mean you are not together?"asked youssef. 

"We got divorced. The papers were out this morning."said Omar. 

"Let's go to your house now. Right now. Move omar."said youssef. The weather was really hot that day. Youssef was so worried now as he remembered Maggie talk. When she told him that she was either going to live with Omar for the rest of her life or she was going to die. Youssef was thinking: no , don't do it Maggie. Please don't. On their way, youssef started to ask God for help. His thoughts were screaming:God, please God let her live . Please don't let her do that. God, she doesn't deserve to die. That was the first time youssef talked to God and asked him for help. He didn't want to lose her. They finally reached the house. They got out of the car and rushed into the house. They found her lying on the floor. There was blood around her as she cut her wrists. Her eyes were wide open . She was dead. There is nothing they can do. 

"You killed her. You killed her."that was all youssef said . That was all youssef thought.

Youssef opened the door to the house and got in. Omar and Ali were sitting on the couch. Talking and drinking coffee. "Hi, sir. Where have you been so early?"asked Ali. 

"He didn't sleep her. He was gone all night."said Omar leaving the room. 

"I was just wondering around. That's all. "Said youssef . He wasn't going to talk about meeting Mariam. He didn't want Ali to get the wrong idea.  

"Well, soldier . I found something that will definitely got your attention. I found out why it is unknown that Faras is Mr. Tarek's son . Mr. Tarek was married twice. Faras was his son from his first wife . Then the mother passed away. Faras was sent to a home school. It was his mom's wish. After a year Mr. Tarek got married again and they had Mayer and Mariam. That's why it's not spread around here that Faras is his son."said Ali. 

"You've done your research. Thanks Ali."said youssef. 

"What's up between you and Omar? A new fight?"asked Ali thinking that if you fight a lot with someone, it's because you care. Ali wished that youssef and omar will find that out . One day.  

"We didn't fight , we had a casual talk."said youssef. 

"Your casual talk when you two scream at each other and sometimes hit each other. What a casual talk?!"said Ali making fun. 

"Haha. Very funny, Ali. Come , then. Let's have a casual talk together." Youssef said moving towards Ali. Ali moved back then youssef grabbed him and they started playing around . It was like they were little kids again.