Hide x Kaneki one shots

Confessions

I often keep my thoughts and feeling to myself because I'm scared no one will truly understand what goes on inside my head. Sure I've told Hide one or two things that pop up, but I never really tell him what's bothering me. I guess I'm feeling something new because I want to tell Hide everything. By everything I mean everything! I don't know when or how, but I will do it. Maybe after school or maybe when I see him this morning. I don't even know if it will be today, could be next month maybe even next year. If I'm still alive by then. In my case time is very uncertain because the CCG could get me at anytime or anywhere if I'm not careful. So I guess sooner rather than later would really work out in my case.

I spent most of the day planning everything, but one thing I forgot was to actually tell Hide to meet me at my house. I quickly dialled his number. Hide picked up first ring.

"Hey Kaneki, what's up?" I smiled at his voice and almost forgot to answer.

"Umm I was wondering if you want to come to my house.." I shouldn't be this nervous with my best friend but I couldn't help it knowing he may not be my best friend after he leaves my house.

"Of course I'll be there in 10" I smiled and let out a breathe that I didn't know I was holding.

"Okay great see you then!" I hung up and made sure everything was perfect. I then walked over to my bed and sat there to wait. I picked up a book to let time pass.

I was now on the third chapter when I heard the knock I've been waiting for. I got up to open it, my heart racing and the lump in my throat came all at once it was a lot to handle.

"Hey Hide" I greeted trying my best to not look freaked out or nervous. I immediately knew I failed when Hide looked at my face closer, he leaned closer to my chest as well.

"Hey are you feeling okay? I mean your face is really red and I can practically hear your heart trying to break out." I was speechless, Hide always knew what was going on. I ran out of breathed as Hide was still looking at my face. I almost didn't catch myself when he put his hand on my face. "You're really warm!"

"No I'm okay I just want to talk to you...." Hide took notice to my shaky voice, he grabbed my hand and led me back to my bed.

"What is it?" Hide kept holding onto my hands and waited for me to reply.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry.." I already started crying I could help it.

"I'm sorry I'm a g-ghoul and I didn't tell you, I'm sorry you're gonna loose a best friend because I know for a fact you're not going to want me after this. I-I don't want you to leave me, but I understand why you're going to leave. Before you go I just want to say... T-Thank you for everything, for being my best friend, making me laugh, giving me advice, for not giving up on me... Can I also add.. I love you, I'm also sorry that someone like me thought they had a chance with you. I know I'm ugly and a monst-" I was cut short with Hide's lips. I felt my heart stop for a couple seconds. I was then brought into a embrace.

"Kaneki.. I know, I've known since we went out to eat the first time after you got out of the hospital. I don't care, I just want you it doesn't matter what you are or what you do, as long as you're Ken Kaneki.. The man I've loved since I was ten.. I love you too, please don't bring yourself down.. Will you be my boyfriend or is this a terrible time and too soon?" I shook my head 'no' and just kissed him.

"Of course I'll be your boyfriend, it's not like I've been dreaming for that moment for years." I laughed and hugged Hide again. I knew in this moment I no longer need to bottle up my feeling because I know I have someone who won't judge and will love me for me.

(A/n wowie I wrote something, I guess I updated a few days back but I just feel like I take forever so I'm sorry to whoever actually reads this.. thank you if you are reading this! Hope you enjoyed some of it <3)