Hide x Kaneki one shots

Weddings and Heartbreaks

I'm a terrible person and I deserve nothing good ever again. I won't go, I won't and I can't. It'll eventually be fine, soon enough I'll be a sad and vivid memory and I'm fine with that. Not completely fine, but fine enough to know I'm doing the right thing. I can't let him ruin his life. He's already wasted twelve years, he can't waste more. I know deep down I'm being very selfish here, however, in this moment I think I know that I am doing the right thing. Letting someone go is so hard, but I'm willing to do that, if that means he'll be safe, that he'll do better in life without me by his side. I just know he'll do better, so that's why I'm siting here on this rooftop waiting for the time to past.

It's been only an hour and I can't sit still, times going by so slow. The ceremony hasn't even started and I'm so impatient. On the other hand I like knowing that nothing bad has happened yet, that he remains unaware, and happy. No time to think about the aftermath though. There's roughly two hours before everything's over. Well I'm guessing at least because based on how things will play out. I'm hoping they don't wait up for me, because I certainly won't be there. Maybe I should go get a coffee. Perhaps I do sound a little Ignorant, but I'm doing this for his happiness.

I mindlessly walked into Anteiku, clearly I'm not thinking straight. I tried my best to avoid eye contact and definitely avoid questions, however no one seemed to ask any. I just ordered my drink and sat at the only available table. I sat done and immediately got the chills. I remember this spot. Of course just my luck, It's 'our' table. I tried to pay no mind to it although I was feeling guilty. I felt as if everyone knew that I shouldn't be here, that I'm supposed to be getting ready right now, that I'm supposed to be getting married to the love of my life. Still I can't go, I can't let him marry me. I hadn't realized I was thinking for so long until Touka stood in front of me, I quickly put my head back down.

"What are you doing here? Don't tell me-" I looked up at Touka who was looking quite confused. I remembered that I had to stay calm.

"It's exactly what you think, I'm not going." I calmly spoke. I just continued to drink my coffee.

"Are you out of your mind? Today is your wedding day!" Touka shouted a little too loud because people around us were starting to tune into what she was saying.

"So? I can't marry him. It's just not right." I looked up to see Touka looking down on me, she looked pretty annoyed at me.

"So that's it, you're just going to leave him there at the alter wondering what he did wrong? I wouldn't have expected this from you.." Touka seemed to have more to say, but I didn't really want her to go on.

"He didn't do anything wrong! He's a human Touka, he shouldn't love me, out of all people I'd expect you to understand." I felt my voice go lower and lower each word I spoke, I should leave.

"You're leaving him because he's a human, yet Hide's always been a human, why are you leaving him now? I'm sorry Kaneki but I just don't understand this time. You've been with him for what..Seven years?" I know what point she was trying to get across, however, I wasn't trying to see any other view on this.

"I'm going to go now." I handed her a few coins and walked right past her, leaving her standing there. I knew going there wouldn't be a good idea, yet I did. I checked the time. It's over. The two hours were over. There was no more waiting, it was just over. This sudden urge to go check out the venue came to me. So me being the way I am, I decided to do just that. I slowly made my way over to the courtyard we had picked.

The courtyard was finally in view, it was gorgeous, I now remember why we chose it, I noticed people starting to clear up the chairs and that's when the half the aisle came in view. I kept reminding myself that's it for the better. I heard some voices say that they should hurry up and get the rest of the chairs. I looked at the remaining chairs left and watched as one by one was put away. However now that all the chairs were gone, I noticed that there was still one person left.

That person was none other than Hideyoshi Nagachika, the man I was supposed to marry this morning. I watched him sit there with his head down, he was visibly shaking which indicated that he was crying. I felt my throat tighten, I didn't care about the whole 'he'll be better off' or 'he's a human' I just want to hug him. I knew I couldn't go back so I just turned around and started walking, quietly crying as I did. However I almost did stop at the words.

"Wait Kaneki please wait!"

(A/N I actually updated, wow :0 haha but I got the sudden urge to write at 5am ~ignore any errors :( ~ so here's whatever this was :)) Anyways I one you enjoyed some of it <3)