Hide x Kaneki one shots

All I Want

It feels like forever since I last heard your voice, since I last hugged you, kissed you, and we can't forgot how long it's been since I last saw your smile.  I think about all those things everyday, especially at night I almost expect you to be at my door. I always dream that you're gonna knock and I'll get up then when I open it, I'll see the face I've been waiting to see for the past six months... But it never happens I still wake up to an empty bed. Our pictures are still hung up all around my house It's the only way I can see your face. 

It's only been six months since you said your last goodbye. I couldn't help but die a little bit inside. I think about that day every time I close my eyes, It's hard to focus on the happy memories when the sad ones cloud over them. I want to remember you laughing, but all I think about is you saying that you had to go. Instead of remembering you saying you love me, I can only remember you crying and telling me you weren't okay. The only good thing about that day was me hugging you, I loved having you in my arms and inhaling your scent. I hate how that was my last time though. 

I have not been able to sleep at night. I just lay in my tears thinking about you not being by my side. I just feel alone and cold. I feel like I don't belong in my bed without you. I only fall asleep when I can't keep my eyes open, but I only get a few hours before I wake up from a bad dream. Then again it's not so bad because I feel like I'm living in a bad dream. I just hope I wake up soon but if I wake up I hope you're next to me. Is that to much to ask?

Hide if you loved me why'd you leave me? I need you more than anything right now.. I just want you no one can help me except you. I just need you to tell me everything will be alright. I don't need much, just your hugs and I'm good. So please come back...

It's strange it almost feel like I'm living in slow motion, It's been like that since that day... The day where I 'took you home.' I'm sorry I messed that up. I took you somewhere else rather than taking you home..  That was the last time I had you in my arms, last time I heard your heartbeat, the last time you smiled. Now I'm left all alone. Hide I can't think straight I can't believe I lost my soulmate. We were supposed to get married, to own a house together , to start a family. You were my somebody... Without you I feel like a nobody. 

You really brought out the best in me. I miss that without you I truly feel like I'm back where I was when I didn't know you. Which is strange because I was really young before I met you. You were my light in this world full of darkness. You really took my soul and whipped it clean. I will forever be thankful for you Hide. I'm sorry I didn't say more when I was with you, If I knew that was my last time with you I would've told you everything I've every felt for you. Words can't describe how I miss you and how much I love you. 

I still can't believe you left me.. I don't mean to sound selfish but I just wish you were here. I know you had to leave for a reason but I just want to know that reason. I'll just keep hoping that this is all a big dream and you'll be next to me because all I want is nothing more to see your face once more. 

(wow I updated.. I really had no ideas, but I was listening to 'All I Want' by Kodaline and wrote a one shot based on that~ Well I hope you enjoyed some of it <3)