Fleurs Captives (Joshler)

37. Gorse

Gorse:
meaning- love in all seasons

***Trigger warning for dysphoria.***

Start the song. It's Be Mine by Alice Boman.

By the time Josh went to bed that night, he was exhausted. He and Tyler had been taking care of things for Papa all day, and it had been midnight by the time Tyler had convinced Josh to leave Papa's bedside. Josh had heard the shower running in the bathroom as he started to drift off, only feeling safe enough to sleep because he knew his boyfriend was only one room away.

Josh hadn't even realized he'd fallen asleep until he looked at the clock and saw that it was half past one in the morning. The shower was still running, which made Josh smile amusedly despite the weight of sleep keeping him from doing anything else. He knew Tyler hadn't had time to jerk off at all today, and his hormones were probably making that torturous. Besides, today had been stressful for both of them. Tyler masturbated to cope, so he could take all the time he needed in there. Josh closed his eyes again, too tired to give Tyler anything but privacy.

It seemed like Josh only blinked before the clock said three in the morning, and the shower was still running. His eyebrows drew together in sleepy confusion before he sighed tiredly and climbed out of bed. He stumbled slightly from sleep as he went to the bathroom door, resting his forehead against the doorframe as he knocked a couple times.

"Ty, if you keep jerking off like this, your dick is going to fall off," Josh said sleepily through the door.

"Just a minute," Tyler called back in a strangled voice, and Josh yawned as he traipsed back to bed.

He didn't go back to sleep this time, waiting patiently for Tyler for twenty minutes. The shower didn't shut off though, so Josh sighed and left his bed again. He rested his head against the doorframe again.

"Ty, can I come in?" He asked.

"No," Tyler replied instantly, making Josh feel more concerned than tired. "Just give me a minute."

His voice was rough, and Josh was starting to realize that it wasn't for the reason he'd initially thought. Josh placed his hand on the doorknob, but stopped there.

"Ty, are you okay in there?" He asked carefully.

He heard Tyler sniffle. "I'm fine. Just go back to bed, honey. Everything's fine."

Somehow, Josh didn't believe him though. "Ty, I'm gonna come in, okay? I don't want to invade your privacy or anything; I just kind of need to know you're okay right now."

When Tyler's only response was a sniffle, Josh opened the door and came in. The shower curtain blocked his view of his boyfriend, but everything in the bathroom looked normal. Tyler's clothes were in a pile on the ground, his binder folded neatly on top of them. Josh stepped over them as he walked over to the shower.

"I'm gonna open the curtain, okay?" He informed Tyler, not wanting to scare him.

He heard Tyler draw in a shaky breath. "Tell me you love me first," he requested in a quiet voice.

That confused Josh too. "Of course I love you. You're my boyfriend. You're the only reason I feel safe here," Josh replied easily as he opened the shower curtain to find Tyler sitting on the shower floor.

They were quiet for a second as they looked at each other, and Tyler looked relieved when Josh immediately stepped out of his boxers and climbed into the tub beside Tyler. He closed the shower curtain before hugging Tyler, who was shaking. Josh didn't blame him. There was blood in the bottom of the tub, and it was coming from between Tyler's legs. Josh may have gotten Tyler his hormones, but apparently he'd gotten them too late.