Beautiful Imperfections

THIRTY EIGHT

I couldn't believe what I just heard. I wanted to be ignorant and not access everything he had just blurted from his mouth. He looked at me in sympathy and said. "After that day, I just wanted to do stuff with you and nothing else. Me asking you out was part of my own plan. I thought you'll say yes easily but you didn't. That attracted me to you. I continued hanging around you until I figured that I was getting obsessed. That day at the restaurant when I left, I figured that I had something more for you. I realized that I couldn't continue like this cause I wanted you for my........"

"Stop! Stop trying to make me feel better about the whole situation! You wanted to just ruin my life so don't tell me any bullshit of you falling for me!"

"I know what we did was really stupid but I actually fell for you. I wanted you for me."

"No you didn't. You were just jealous that I preferred Trevor. That was the actual thing that hurt you. It became a game to y'all when I fell for Trevor. A game to win. Y'all are just fucking assholes."

"Trevor is the only asshole. One morning, he called all of us and told us that the plan is canceled......" my mind went back to when he had finished having sex with me.

I stopped the hot tears from rolling down my cheeks.

To be sincere, I guess I preferred my old life without boy drama cause I wasn't a prey for four boys to just use and dump. I would have taken Jackson's advice. This was too much but I had to hear every last part of it. My mind went back to what Brad was saying "....... I was really furious when he said it's over and I told him that I will not agree to that. We were disappointed but no one said anything after that.....not that we were scared. We just let it go."

I looked at him with burning tears in my eyes.

"Is that it?"

He looked at me in pity. "I'm really sorry Pearl. I didn't know you then."

I stood up from the chair. "That means you're done." With a fake grin, I began to walk towards the door. My ears were so sensitive that I heard his phone vibrating.

"Pearl." He sounded genuine. He was actually sorry but, I didn't even have the time to think of that. I turned and looked back at him.

He then said. "Trevor's calling me." He showed me the screen of his phone. It was at that time that the tears I've been holding back broke out. I held my chest crying and I fell to the floor.

I was aware that I looked weak in his eyes but I didn't care. I couldn't keep up with the 'hardcore' thingy anymore. I was already broken.
I trusted these people and this was all they had to offer. Now, I believe all those broken girls that say 'men are scum'.

What if I was too foolish and overwhelmed with the fact that I got the attention I dearly wanted for years? You know, It's best if I was still that girl no one looked at. That pretty friend that's was single and lonely. It's far better than this.

Brad wrapped himself around me on the floor trying to console me. I couldn't push him cause I really needed it at that time.

"Did you pick up?" I asked him.

"No.....he's the last person you....."

His phone vibrated again and I stood up from the floor. He joined me then, I stretched my hand for his phone. He withdrew himself.
"Pearl....you can't talk to him right now."

"Neither should I be talking to you. Give me the phone."
His facial expression changed and I was sure that he was broken at that moment. He swallowed in saliva like it was hardwork.
"I can't."
I rushed for his phone but I underestimated his strength cause he just captured me instantly holding my waist. I tried to struggle for his other hand but he held me back tighter. Stretching the other hand farther from my reach.

I looked up meeting eyes with his. My eyes went down to his lips and remembered that party. That party where he kissed the hell out of me. At first, I thought he was the one for me. Little did I know that he was a certified jerk.

"Get off me!" I shouted escaping from his hold. He didn't expect it that was why I was successful in escaping. Tears kept on pouring out of my eyes. "I hate all of you at the moment. You guys are the last people on this earth I want to see!"

"Pearl."

I ignored him walking out of his house. I kept on walking on his street thinking of the most suitable place to go to at the moment. Yes! The bar but someone might find me there. I had to go to one that wasn't really popular. As I walked, people were just staring at me but I didn't care for any reason.

"Are you okay?" A little blonde boy asked me and I ignored cause he reminded me of Collins. I loathed those four friends at that moment. Finally, I found a bar and got inside. It was empty.

"Red head! What can I get you?!" The man looked like he was in his fifty's.

I sat down at bar counter right infront of the man. He frowned a little when he saw my face and I shook my head.

"Don't. Don't ask what's wrong with me. I'm fine and good."

"I highly doubt that. Vodka?"

I chuckled. "I badly want to get wasted at this moment but I won't. I'll wake up with a headache and I can't deal with that right now. I mean I can't even deal with males these days."

He smiled. "What did he do?"

"They do."

Surprise fully written on his face. "They? Wow that's one big bomb."

I laughed. "That fell on one young inexperienced young girl like me..... I need all the sympathy right now but instead, I'll love to have a glass of scotch gracias."

"Ayy ayy captain." He went to get the bottle and I asked. " Can I kill my self in your bar?"

He filled a glass cup with scorch and dropped it infront of me. "Definitely not in here."

"I hate them. God! I want to kill them especially Trevor." I gulped the whole glass at once and the man looked at me.

"Whatever they did, you don't have to kill yourself. They're not worth it. Trust me."

I looked at him. "I was a fucking game to them."

"That's very bad of them I know but life has to continue pretty lady. You're too beautiful to get worried about those bastards."
I chuckled. "I can't forgive them."

"Damn who's talking about forgiveness?! I'm talking about your self happiness. They can't just show up and keep you sad like this. Come on, see how swollen your eyes are. They're not worth all these." He said and I smiled. God definitely led me to this bar.

He continued. "Scrape and punish those assholes out of your life but don't let your life end here. Be a happy pretty girl and don't let anyone mess with your joy again. This isn't the end of the world....." he paused figuring that he didn't know my name.

"Pearl." I helped him out.

"Pearl......red head Pearl."

I chuckled hard. "I can't say how grateful I am."
He smiled. "Nahh don't worry. It's nothing. Maybe I'm meant to be like a therapist or something else not selling beer in a bar."

I laughed. "If you're still alive, you can still chase your dream."

We laughed together and he ruffled my hair with his hand. And that was how I made a new friend.

Hi people! So, I took this lengthy break because I was going through something. Well, I'm back now. Yayyy!!! I'm coming up with very interesting updates plus I'll release the first chapter of my new book tomorrow by God's grace! That book is gonna be the best so ensure you read it! I heart you all.