why am i getting butterflies ?,
the way he is looking at me im driven. "so how you been ?" i snapped out of it instently when denise spoke, "this is my girl abby." abby waved at tony "abby this is tony". they said there hellos , at this moment my girls got there match everyone is paired up with someone me and tony catching up laughing.
we was two hours in when realizing this place we was at wasnt tony home, it was a abandent home that they chill at. "you got a boyfriend?" tony asked me eating his chips ". shit do i? i thought to myself .."its complicated" i replied,
i wasnt too sure where me and Q stand but i no neither one of us called it quits .tony smirked "oh yea ? buddy fucking up huh".
"thats none of your busniess"
he closed his chips "okay okay." he laughed. "im just making sure i dont want to be beating nobody up over your cute ass." felt like i was on a roller coaster i got butterflies i loved his gangsta. he called me cute.
2a.m
our walk home was so bomb all we talked about was our night we had so much fun chilling with the guys "girl i thought we was in danger when blue came to get us at mc donalds like follow me !". jasmine imitated
"he sexy i had to get at him!"abby said with a smirk on her face. "no his ass was creepy"
denise commented. "so what you and tony was doing yall was booed all the way up lookn cute"
jasmine asked ,"oh wow we caught up thats all".
The next morning i hear Q outside calling my name.
"what do you want?" i was so annoyed to see him i knew he was going to fuck my vibe up
"i came over last night you wasnt here." here he go not getting it trying to control me
aint we on break?
"your point" i said with a attitude , he walked closer to my window" baby can you put some clothes on and meet me in the front? i have something for you" he plead. I really wasnt trying to hear him out im sleepy as hell after coming in at almost 3:30 a.m the girls went home earlier this morning. but i knew i had to see our else he wouldnt leave my window, I got up and put some clothes on.
everyone except lane was woke of course. I go to the front and see more then 20 teddy bears on my porch "oh my gosh" i was flattered ."baby forgive me" Q begged just when i was about to answer don stuck his head out the window , "what the fuck !, ole simpin ass nigga !." he joked ."man shut yo ugly ass up" Q said then directing his eyes to me , i tried to play it off like i wasnt blown away . don came back to the window "yall look at this nigga !" he started cracking up , of course he didnt no Q hit me none of my brothers knew they wouldve tore him up.
"baby forgive me" he said walking up to me. I was confused
and blown away by all the bears and how much work he put into this and i can tell he was sorry, even though what he did wasnt cool but he learned his lesson right?.
weeks went by me and Q was starting over he was doing everything right i even been ignoring text messages from tony, of course my girls are upset with me for taking Q back but im in love. hes even considered speakin to abby to squash their beef but she wasnt having it which was understandable . The girls still went and chilled with tony and his friends. "he asking for you", denise called me while they were chilling with the guys. "girl come over and chill with us we got drink." abby plead, "naw yall have fun im trying to stand clear and fix my relationship with Q." i whispered , i couldnt go anyway Q was taking me to the movies . "i got to go " i hung up with them and started getting dressed i couldnt wait to get out this loud ass house.
i never had anything cute to wear i tried to sneak into my mama room and find a shirt to wear. she was in the living room with her boyfriend jb
Its bittersweet when jb come over sometimes he keeps he occupied where she not cussing us out she cussing his ass out or making her smile. but at times i couldnt stand jb , he always made me feel weird like he was starring at me too much i couldnt stand perverts so it bothered me i didnt tell my mama because when i was 12 i over heard a conversation my mama and jb had when i was walking in the house they were in the living room i passed by and heard jb "she got some big titties." I was shooked and waiting for my mama to go in on his nasty ass. "boy shut up" i was upset thats all she said and done. "baby you ready?" i looked up saw Q at the door smiling "yes let me put my hair in a bun". i had so much hair and didnt no shit to do with it so a pony tail was my go too hair style.
We was walking out the door "um where do you think your going?" my mom questioned with a cigarette in her hand of course. "to the movies with Q"i replied.she looked at jb and started chanting "YOU DONT NEVER TAKE ME TO THE MOVIES !." which is true he doesnt take her anywhere which is maybe why she be so mean to me when Q does something nice for me so now when i come back in the house she is going to have the worst attitude with me and pick a fight with me for no reason, i try to prevent that by smiling at her our ask her what she is doing to start a conversation but nope she vebally abuse me no lie it hurts.
just as expected when i got home after a good night she picked on me yelling at me for something that happened last month .i was all kinds of bitches and hoes ! stupid and how much she didnt want me. I had a cat that i was in love with she threatened me to get rid of it , i cried all night im sick of this shit i hated being happy. I offered to give jb 30 dollars to use and take her to the movies maybe itll help but no he took the money and use it on beer. drunk bitch
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Life Dilemmas
Документальная прозаcarlee was a teenager that didnt have any guidence . went through some struggles , bad relationships abusive relationship . alot of people broke her trust turned their back on her , she got pregnant as a teen and was struggling to raise a child . lo...
