I woke up and tony was gone he text me that he left around 2 a.m
I got angry text from my girls i giggled because i can hear they voice as i read they messages.
I got in the shower and got dressed hoping they will forgive me and feed me because it wasnt no food in the house and i was starving.
when i walked up to abby gate her dogs was barking at me "be quite mugs!" i yelled at the dog abby and the girls came outside crossing there arms
"what you want" abby said
"i come in peace !" i laughed everyone but jasmine was looking serious.
"no bitch where was you last night?" denise said
"i fell asleep"i lied
"no you didnt bitch!"abby said
"i hit up blue he said he was going to pick up tony from your house at almost three this morning"
"okay! i got some dick so what im sorry " i ran to them for a hug
"im hungry whats for breakfast?"i said hold my stomach,
"why he didnt feed you"jasmine said ,they agreed.
"man where my grandma"
i barged in abby house and grandma was cooking she guided me to sit down and served me breakfast , they was jealous. we ate and laughed also went through the pictures from yesterday at the babyshower
"so how the fuck you still fucking and you about to blow next month"denise asked
"i can still have sex makes it easier for the baby to come out"
"you not scared?"
"a little but i have month to prepare , we have a doctors appointment on july 15th my mama birthday thats the last one until i give birth next month" i was defiantly nervous bringing a baby into this messed up world and worrying on how good of a parent im going to be.
July15th,2010
on our way to the doctor tony was acting distant and i havent brung up the fact that i havent heard from him last night but i was excited to see my baby girl,
"what yall doing for your mama?" tony asked me
"i think we having a little party"
"Q going to be there?" he questioned ilooked at him crazy and confused on why he askked that we walked into the doctor "whats wrong i asked him" he put his earphones on i was confused to why hes acting like this "i dont nowh-" i was cut of buy the docot calling my name
"carlee polk!"i got up and gotten excited to see my baby .. when we got our room tony sat down with this face of hurt i wonder if he cheated on me last night ?
when theey ran the ultrasoound i was in love all over again i can see my baby clearly "your baby is in position" the doctor said
"what does that mean" i asked
"means she ready to come out maybe sooner then your due date"
"how soon?" tony hurried and asked
"maybe the day before or end of the month but shes turned around maybe thats why your stomach was hurting last week when you called in ms polk"
"but im not nine months"
"yes but if she comes a day before your due date even at the end of the month she should be fine"
we left the doctor and i was excited to have a healthy baby ,when we got off the bus i looked at tony face and again he was quiet .
"whats wrong dude" i yelled
"how u no if this my baby?"
when he said that i wanted to slap the fuck out of him
"what you mean?"
"how do you no i been thinking"
"no you let people get in your head!" i went on
"you no what ill hit you up when my water break and the baby come " i walked away
"fine !" he yelled and we went our separate ways .
later that night denise and abby came over when i called and told them about what happened.
Everybody was in the house loud as ever and i felt irratated by the sight of everyone i layed in my bed and was surpised to see tony never called me "fuck him! fuck everybody why is everyone here uggggh!!" i thought to myself everyone was in my room talking i grabbed a bag of pennies that i was saving and started throwing them at abby denise and everyone that was in my sight they started laughing at me when i told them to get on.
"yall got to leave !!!!" i yelled they laughed even harder i started feeling hot and like i had to piss i got up and looked at them,
"fuck yall! " i walked into the restroom and took a leak i got up and walked away from the toilet and felt some pressure, water started pouring from my pussy like i was peeing on myself i wipped myself up but it kept going it was a puddle on the floor.
"LANE!" i yelled for my mama she rushed in the bathroom
"ooo girl!" she panicked abby and denise ran in the bathroom, "what happened" they asked.
my mama called my grandma and explained everthing to her "her water broke " my grandma said , when she said that i felt light headed don and karl came into the room don yelled "yall retarted call 911!".
my mama called my daddy
"im on my way"
"how you feel" my grandma asked me over the phone
"i feel fine just a little cramps like im about to start my period."
"okay i had the same feeling your about to have that baby"
my grandma said that and i felt crazy .
"somebody call tony he isnt going to believe me!" i yelled .
9:05pm
"im on my way" tony told my mama nervously
9:10pm
tony arrived at my house we all looked at eachother and got scared "how you get here so fast"
we asked him.
when my daddy came he grabbed me and the baby bag and got me in the car we rushed to california hospital , abby and denise went to abby house and promise to be up there a little later.
when we arrived at the hospital tony jumped out the car and almost fell i laughed
0 "this isnt the time to be laughing." my daddy said,
tony went to grab the nurse they ran to the car with a wheel chair they rushed me to the back asking me all types of questions i couldnt answer.
9:45pm
when they got me to the room they took a ultrasound i looked at tony i can tell he was nervous
"relax this a false alarm like the last time" i smiled,
the doctor came to us and put a baby heart monitor on me to hear the baby heart it was loud
"doc when am i going home?"
"depends on when the baby come" he said
"wait im going to have the baby tonight?"i was confused
"well your dilating really slow your about 3 centimeters open"
when he said that i felt my contractions
"is that why im cramping?" i asked
"those are contractions" the doctor walked out i looked at tony he looked like he was about to shit on his self.
12:00am
EVERYONE started coming to the hospital my contractions started feeling worse "i have to shit!" i kept telling the doctors they swore i was tripping but maybe i was because i walked to the bathroom a few time to shit and nothing came out
july 16th 2010 11:45 a.m
denise and abby came in laughing
"fuck yall bitches man this shit hurt! "
"you'll no not to be opening your legs"
i giggled then another contraction came "OOOOUUCCHHH!" i couldnt take it they were getting worse a few hours and a epidural later i started pushing on my own
"push!" the doctor yelled
i looked up and saw tony and denise in the room with me
"i feel like i need to push!"
"no just wait until i say go"
"no i have to push!" i whinned ,
denise grabbed my hand tony looked shook i gave too big pushes! {baby crying!}.......
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Life Dilemmas
Non-Fictioncarlee was a teenager that didnt have any guidence . went through some struggles , bad relationships abusive relationship . alot of people broke her trust turned their back on her , she got pregnant as a teen and was struggling to raise a child . lo...
